marshall wrote:
I don't know if what I experience has much to do with caring too much or not caring enough. It's more like I have too strong of a reaction to "awkwardness" and I'm not able to push through it and be more assertive or blunt. I overreact to other people's potential emotions. I say "potential" because to be totally honest I can't 100% verify my gut instinct. I think it may be more of a social anxiety issue than an autism issue. It's not as though I'm afraid of embarrassing myself or anything though. It's more just a feeling of too much tension when I sense something awkward, like someone being a little bit nervous or passive aggressive. I notice it really easily and it rubs off on me too much.
I'm not sure if everyone here is really understanding the thing I'm describing.
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I think it may be more of a social anxiety issue
Could be. I'll say that I'm more in tune with 'empathy' and I
feel them strongly -- comparing this( in my experience) to the NT mean. I can read a
cover up and what's really underneath all that. I
can walk in those shoes.
I'll say my anxiety stemmed from having another distraction, ( which
gawd knows I didn't need another one) and especially if I knew I was the
cause.
It could loop in a vicious cycle: In one scenario the awkwardness is
because of me, then I read
that and am distracted from the main event, and they
then read my nervous body language, because I can't pay attention at this point, and it snowballs to where you are consumed by a conflagration of signals.
(It's in the past tense because I out grew it, you could say.)
21 Mar 2012, 10:06 pm
