19 Nov 2006, 4:43 am
DrowningMedusa wrote:
I wished I was like everyone else all my life, and always failed - I can't change who I am, and this I believe has been the cause of my depression and anxiety.
No more, though. I have decided to accept me for the way I am: yes, I'm awkward, socially and physically, and yes, I can really care more about my own projects and interests than people around me, and yes, I'm very naive. But so what? I don't know anyone who can absorb language and words the way I can. I don't know anyone with a memory for facts like mine. I don't know anyone as guileless as myself, and I don't know anyone who has the focus and drive that I have when I'm interested in something.
Why change? Why want to change?
No more, though. I have decided to accept me for the way I am: yes, I'm awkward, socially and physically, and yes, I can really care more about my own projects and interests than people around me, and yes, I'm very naive. But so what? I don't know anyone who can absorb language and words the way I can. I don't know anyone with a memory for facts like mine. I don't know anyone as guileless as myself, and I don't know anyone who has the focus and drive that I have when I'm interested in something.
Why change? Why want to change?
This is so true, I'm always talking about my "vision" and though I'm generally regarded as insane or childish, it is irrelavent for creating things I've imagined for years brings me more joy than anything I've ever experienced.
I love my strengths, and through them I'm learning a way to conquer or deal with my weaknesses.
No matter what despite what I've done, despite horrible moments I've had, despite being alone a lot of the time, I can't help but love the fact that I have something bigger than myself to create..
Every time I finish a track, or play guitar, or jam with my brother, I feel its a connection deeper than words or socialising.
"your lack of vision, is the division"
