"Crashing" the ADOS. . .
EstherJ
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Thank you. I appreciate your reassurance.
I told myself that I need to calm down and realize that I was too consistent...and that I have no idea how others really perceive me anyway.
Besides, there are a group of psychologists who are working with me.
I have OCD as well....I think that I might have just had a short bout of catastrophizing there. So thank you.
I hope you don't mind if I ever private message you about this? I find your project, and testing, really interesting.
EstherJ wrote:
Ok guys...now I'm a little freaked out.
I made it a priority not to learn too much about the test in order to ensure that my results would be accurate.
All I knew was that I would take module 4, and I knew the names of the activities. Just a loose structure of how the test would be run. I knew it tested my social imagination.
I'm paranoid now that they might think I faked it to look worse than I am. I don't know why I'm worried, but I am. I made sure that I wouldn't even be able to fake it. I WANT accurate results. But I'm scared they will read into it and say I was faking it.
The thing is, I tried my best just to be me. The difficulties I felt were real. I hope they see that. Oh gosh.
Is this just another outgrowth of my issues? Did anyone else wonder about this?
I made it a priority not to learn too much about the test in order to ensure that my results would be accurate.
All I knew was that I would take module 4, and I knew the names of the activities. Just a loose structure of how the test would be run. I knew it tested my social imagination.
I'm paranoid now that they might think I faked it to look worse than I am. I don't know why I'm worried, but I am. I made sure that I wouldn't even be able to fake it. I WANT accurate results. But I'm scared they will read into it and say I was faking it.
The thing is, I tried my best just to be me. The difficulties I felt were real. I hope they see that. Oh gosh.
Is this just another outgrowth of my issues? Did anyone else wonder about this?
I was also worrying about accidentally or unintentionally skewing the test results due to my knowledge I had gathered about ASDs by the time I was in the diagnostic process. I guess they might have taken it into account, as they might already knew about possible ways and circumstances by which adults usually ask for an evaluation. Nevertheless, I didn't try to hide anything or appear more autistic than usually I am, at least not consciously. I think I was a bit more direct than usually I am with strangers, but that's all.
I'm pretty much sure they knew how to interpret the test results. Later they explained to me that they take them 'with a grain of salt', applying just as much subjectivity as objectivity when making the decision.
EstherJ wrote:
Ok guys...now I'm a little freaked out.
I made it a priority not to learn too much about the test in order to ensure that my results would be accurate.
All I knew was that I would take module 4, and I knew the names of the activities. Just a loose structure of how the test would be run. I knew it tested my social imagination.
I'm paranoid now that they might think I faked it to look worse than I am. I don't know why I'm worried, but I am. I made sure that I wouldn't even be able to fake it. I WANT accurate results. But I'm scared they will read into it and say I was faking it.
The thing is, I tried my best just to be me. The difficulties I felt were real. I hope they see that. Oh gosh.
Is this just another outgrowth of my issues? Did anyone else wonder about this?
I made it a priority not to learn too much about the test in order to ensure that my results would be accurate.
All I knew was that I would take module 4, and I knew the names of the activities. Just a loose structure of how the test would be run. I knew it tested my social imagination.
I'm paranoid now that they might think I faked it to look worse than I am. I don't know why I'm worried, but I am. I made sure that I wouldn't even be able to fake it. I WANT accurate results. But I'm scared they will read into it and say I was faking it.
The thing is, I tried my best just to be me. The difficulties I felt were real. I hope they see that. Oh gosh.
Is this just another outgrowth of my issues? Did anyone else wonder about this?
Haha. Yeah, I just received my results. (I don't really get it, they said I had a comprehensive score of 9.) I walked in there with a mindset that I kind of wanted to be diagnosed. It would just give me an explanation for almost every social problem I've had since I was a child. So having that in the back of my mind I feared that I may modify my behavior in order to confirm my beliefs. Kind of like a confirmation bias that will lead to a self-fulfilling prophecy. In the end I don't believe I did though. In fact I behaved much better than I expected. I actually had semi-normal communication skills.
