Do you ever wish you can somtimes escape adulthood?

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Oh yes,

being an adult is terrie.
I feel like my best years are long gone.

Yes, I wish I stayed a kid forever. Being an adult is complicated, even though I still live with my parents. Still, I wish that my mom could still make all my medical decisions and didn't need me to call the pharmacy and stuff. They won't allow her to get my prescriptions refilled. Then, my doctors always expect me to answer their questions when my mom could give them better answers. I liked it when they asked my mom and I didn't say anything.

Yes, I wish I was a kid again all the damn time. But then I think back to the home I grew up in and the parents who raised me, and I don't ever want to go back to that hell hole. Sometimes adult life gets so stressful I just don't even want to bother living anymore. Hell, half the time I wish I was never even born. Back when I was in like middle school, I already had a pretty good idea of what adult life would be like in terms of all your friends just disappearing and having to work some sh***y low end job for no money and no benefits just to scrape by... None of that sounded any good to me whatsoever, and I was right. Adult life sucks, but being a kid can suck too, especially if your parents are a**holes...

I'm 41 and I don't even feel like an adult. I'm like I was when I was a child, just with more responsibilities. My responsibilities aren't too bad, so I don't sense anything to wish to "escape" from.

Life sucks in general.

I'm actually dying to get out there, in the 'real' world. I'm so sick of living with my parents, being spoken down to and people acting as if I'm a lost little girl. I've actually had fantasies about yelling down the phone at bill companies! . But still...
I think I'd be fine at the housekeeping aspect, but not the financial, unfortunately. I hate filling in forms.

Adulthood certainly has its downsides. But I like that no one expects anything of me on a daily basis. I can just do what I want, I can stay in my room all day without my Mum wondering if I'm terminally ill, hah. I don't have to go to school (worst place ever, from my experience).

I do miss being "protected", though, for example... I used to obsess about volcanoes when I was a kid, but like the movies... Children are always protected by their parents. When you're an adult, especially if you have children (which I don't), you have to step into that role.

I remember going to bed thinking that whatever was going on that was stressful, would have become right again when I wake up.
Now days, it's me who has to make things right, and it can be difficult knowing what is right.

I know us adults are expected to work full time and pay our way, and if there's an aspect to adulthood that I want to escape, it's that. I would much rather be in my room, alone, rather than having to tend to snotty customers who are always bitching about crap I don't care about. I hate the thought of being a slave to another person, even if it is a job and I'm being paid...
Slave to animals, though? Sure, hah.
But people... Especially the "Normals", just make me psychopathic. I can't even listen to the radio without wanting to smash it with my face.

I wish there was an escape. Some people might view living at home with parents who financially support me great, but in reality it is a terribly lonely, shameful, life and far, far from what I want for myself. At the same time I kind of suck at things everyone I know can do without thinking, and I'm afraid this is all I'll ever be.