Is your daily life a struggle no matter what you are doing?

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I'd describe it like that feeling you got as little kid when you were sick or hurt and you'd be overwhelmed with this feeling of dread that you would never get better, but then you'd wake up one morning without the fever and it'd be like a weight lifted off you and you could live life normally again. Well for me since I realized how crappy my social skills were I've been living with that feeling of dread and it feels like it will never go away, and never will because there is no way to fix who I am.
It feels like I've been building up to a meltdown for years, but I never quite reach the point of melting down. It's so frustrating because I feel that if I just totally meltdown then maybe I'll be able to build up my life from scratch.

I know

i'm always worried about something. Little things completely stress me out. 95% of my life is spent anxious or worried about something.

I almost never feel okay and experience the same up and down effect of under- to over-stimulation. Also depending on what I have to do in one day I may not be able to finish it all and at some point I just clear my schedule for the next 36 hours to recover. I've made great efforts to simplify my life; I have no friends and the few relationships I do maintain are stressful enough and I put all of my energy into them. It's especially frustrating when these conflict-- so I have to choose based on every possible outcome. I can't figure out why valuing your own time is bad in this society when everyone is already so selfish.

I look at it as protecting my sanity. I have to prioritize me often, if not I will fall into a black pit. The repercussions for those around me might be worse than if I just look out for me first. ..so in a sense, I do look out for them aswell, when prioritizing me.

Well, thats was alot of justifying, but bah, whatever, I am tired. Good night.

Well, I'd say it a little differently: my daily life is difficult because it is filled with things that feel difficult/hard but I feel fine about those normal daily difficulties. It's not the kind of stress that impacts me emotionally and makes me feel overwhelmed. Do you mean that emotional overwhelming state?

The feeling that I have is more that I am ready for the next challenge (dressing, cleaning something, cooking, showering, going out, meeting friends) because I want the next sort of reward I only get from doing it. I do not have a - I don't know how to put that - negative emotion of whatever kind that accompanies me throughout the day and that contributes significantly to which things appear to be hard to do and might turn out to be waaay easier without the anxiety.

Maybe I'm not deep enough for such misery, but I usually feel pretty upbeat about having succeeded at even something simple such as washing my hair and feeling positive about/enjoy what I got out of it: the sensation of cleanliness, of water of just the right temperature running over my hands, the smell of shampoo so on... Relaxing. Gives a lot of strength back.

I feel okay everyday most of the time, but that doesn't mean I don't worry much about my future. I'm 19 and I don't know what to do with my life, it's such a struggle being around people, I can't afford college, my financial aid can't help me, and getting a part time job really is a challenge because I just can't be around people. I desperately want a career around the medical field or art. But I feel like my anxiety around people and my lack of good communication keeps holding me back. I even asked myself what it would be like to be dead.
I feel like no one cares about me, I feel alone, and I don't like going out.

I feel like I have been walking upstream against a strong current my whole life,I am so f-----g tired.Take today for example,I had to go to town so it takes forever to get myself ready for the trip,on the way I have a flat,the stupid jack won't go up high enough for me to get my good spare on(why would you even sell a jack like this?)so I had to put the stupid do-nut spare tire on which isn't very safe since. I live on a real rocky road.Then when I get to town they can't fix my tire since a rock flipped up and punctured the sidewall.I know people deal with these things daily and they seem to cope just fine but stuff like this just saps the life out of me.Some of it is having to do all the talking to strange people but I honestly feel so burned out I wish I could just lay down and watch the light flicker in the tree leaves and not have to do anything but be a rock.

Yeah I'm just.getting by that's why I'm.on disability. Something like buying food can take days or weeks before I have the energy or nerve to go outside. When something that simple is hard you know your in trouble.

When I'm left to my own devices I do relatively better; family demands and clients' expectations are noticeably taxing to me these days, compounded with keeping my special interest transportation driveable for another day. So many directions to turn, so few hours and dollars to make one of those directions forward

If I had to sum up how I feel in one word, it would probably be overwhelmed.

I feel overwhelmed by the unrelenting responsibility for having to look after myself. I left home at age 13 (I was taken into care and lived in children's homes because I had been battered by my father) and I'm now 42, nearly 43.

I feel as though I've had a full-time job, for nearly 30 years, and I've been doing it 24/7 and I haven't ever had a day off or a holiday. Even when I lived with a boyfriend, I never really felt taken care of, it was more like I was taking care of them.

Sometimes, I'd really love to be just swept off my feet by a 'real man', someone responsible and practical who solves problems and takes care of things. I'd love for someone else to say 'Don't worry about that, dear, I'll take care of it' or 'You seem to be struggling, is there anything I can do for you, anything I can help with?'

I'd love not to feel so burdened with responsibility for absolutely everything. I'd like a day off every now again. I'd like a holiday from being me. I'd like to go and spend a fortnight on a beach and come back and find that in my absence someone had organised my finances and paid the bills, dealt with the builders and sorted out the roof repairs, contacting the housing association and processed a compensation claim for the damage caused by the roof leak, called in the painters and decorators and had the work done.

I'd like not to feel so alone, to feel as though it wasn't me v the world and I had to deal with everyone and everything.

I feel like I need a break. But overwhelmed because realistically speaking I know I'm not going to get one, and it's like I'm on a treadmill that's going slightly too fast for me, but it won't stop or slow down and I can't get off. And it's relentless and overwhelming and I just despair so much that things are never going to get any better, I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel.

I find it very easy to be overwhelmed by responsibility, and have a fairly low threshold for it. I do find a lot of things difficult, which is likely why I spend so much time ignoring those things and reading internet forums.

I remember when I first saw this post on Hyperbole and a Half (link) and it hit a chord:

Haha! I know it's not nice to laugh of others misery, but this really hit a chord with me too.

For me anxiety is by far my most prominent symptom. I cant go through a single day without getting at least one huge anxiety spike or my strange thoughts caused by an anxiety disorder i have. I also feel like I'm always one step away from a meltdown even though I almost never get them . sometimes I want to let myself go into meltown to relieve the tension but i know if i do ill only feed my anxieties and stress.

To be fair, Allie Brosh put it up for people to find it funny. The truth is painful, but I found a lot of her posts on the subject both therapeutic and funny.

Not even sure if I have AS, but I'm kicking myself now after finishing school. I think there are sure ways for aspies to get somewhere anywhere anyway. Lifes a struggle for everyone, but we'll find ourselves a good place

Lifes easier now but 2012 has gone too fast.