CyborgUprising wrote:
Dirtdigger wrote:
CyborgUprising wrote:
My bedroom and "stim room" are both dark, though the latter is much darker due to the fact it is a windowless room. I even black out the alarm clock because the illuminated numbers keep me awake.
I stim in my bedroom most of the time.
I couldn't do it (my larger stims that would be far too obvious to do in public). I've tried, but I keep getting this creepy feeling that someone is watching with a disapproving scowl on their face. Perhaps this is because of the whole "God's watching you" thing I had to live with for so long. I have to do it in complete darkness, hence the need for the separate windowless room.
I do stim in public, because by the time I realize I am stimming I am already stimming for quite a time.
Once a week I go to the center for autism and I have to take the train to go there.
At the station waiting for the train or I walk in circles or I am standing against a wall rocking with my upper body against the wall.
But in that moments I am in overload and stimming is my unconscious way to release the tension and my body just does it.
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