Callista wrote:
Apple_in_my_Eye wrote:
Some years ago I was on, I think, 0.5mg at night for sleep, but like someone else mentioned it destroyed my motivation. Getting out of bed in the morning became an ordeal and getting work & college tasks accomplished, so I stopped it. If I had been less busy at the time I might've given it more of a chance.
Jeez. Those things are already an ordeal for me and I haven't had an antipsychotic of any sort in about eight years. What really irritates me is that I'm pretty sure I was better at the whole motivation thing before they over-medicated me for about six months; but there's no way of telling whether the medication is to blame, because I also had my worst depressive episode right before that. Depression saps your motivation like nobody's business, and if you're depressed long enough and repetitively enough, it can re-wire your brain. This is why you have to nip it in the bud when you start getting depression, instead of trying to pretend everything's okay and stupidly soldiering on for months. Like I did. Multiple times. Stupid me.
Ah yeah, BTDT. I think the downsides of excessive stoicism are really, really underrated.
But, anyway, I was also depressed at the time and have wondered if that contributed to a stronger than usual reaction to that drug, since the dose wasn't dose that high. And, I was also tried on Zyprexia and Geodon with the same results.
OTOH, (but I don't know a huge amount about it) the (potential) long-term effects of those drugs creep me out and make me wonder what other effects there could be that are not yet formally identified. There was something I read about tardive cognitive problems, which took some work to prove (patients complained but were told it wasn't real). Hell, I gather that even with Parkinson's there are recently-recognized cognitive changes that patients have probably been complaining about for 70 years (and they were likely told they were imagining it or that it was psychological).
Must stop now, cat wants attention (and I am her slave).