Ever want to run away?

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I used to run away when I was younger when I had a meltdown.

When I was about 14 me and 7 other friends were going to. We had the perfect plan and had an exact date planned. Everyone had a role so we couldn't back out right at the last minute. We had researched the sites of where to go to. so we could move if needed to. We packed bags full of clothing and hid them away forthe day. The plan was to sneak out during the middle of the night with what we needed and meet at someone's house. I learned how to drive just for that (this is before I knew older brothers and sisters were going to join) We also had located parts of our houses where money was kept and wouldn't get caught. When we arrived to our spot we were going to change our clothes and quietly set up. We also had cell phones incase someone got caught they would call us in code and tell us to leave the area. We had people who werent' all the same age go so they wouldn't just hunt down one specific group. However a girl told her boyfriend she was going to do it and he told everyone (taking it offensively like she was breaking up andtold everyone for revenge) After that it was over and everyone moved on from there. A few have run away or made an attempt to though. My friends who wanted to do this:
1. Someone who was adopted but didn't feel like he belonged. He only told the family recently, age 12 then.
2. A person with similar problems as me thought the same thing: running away will solve all problems and give a fresh start never told the family 14 then.
3. High school girl (sister of someone involved) who was popular and attractive called a name about her looks which hurt her however shortly after her and her boyfriend (the one who told) made up had left and not been seen since. (talked to her brother once since) 17 then and 18 at success.
4. Another student who was punished by his parents in weird ways but they always gave him what he wanted. (he was going to be the one to provide all the things convinced me to come up with an original plan). 13 then. a few years later we were riding dirtbikes and he drove off the path for the woods. This was his original plan.
5. A Boy who's step father was in jail his real father took off so that was basically what he knew. told his family and they thought it was a joke 16 then.
6. Highschool girl where it was rumored someone drugged her and raped her at a party in her own home. 16 then. The day this plan was supposed to happen she attempted to run by hiding in a delivery truck but was found on the next route.
7. Girl who said she didn't fit in because of how she looked. 14 then
8. ME: Thought running away would solve my problems and I could live I wanted to and wouldn't be restrained by my parents. 14 then
- If you get the idea to do it this is the best idea because the parents or other residents wont know or foreget if you set a date. Then you might not be as nervous when its time to go. There is also time to practice when you are going to run.

Quinntilda, that is really interesting. Seriously - I found your post fascinating and quite profound. Thank you for sharing this experience.

When I was 15, I almost did.

I've had itchy feet since I was a kid. I used to think being a drifter wouldn't be such a bad life, as long as you had somewhere to take a shower and go to the bathroom. But I've never managed to work up the courage to really do it and now I'm trapped by obligations. Also, as a female, I would've ended up dead in a ditch, probably.

Ran away twice as a kid. I had a good reason--home was not a nice place when I was that age.

A little bit of running does nobody any harm, though. Go drive in a random direction, get a hotel room, stay for a while, take a break from your life. Leave a note to tell people you're okay, if you don't want to worry them. If you're a kid, it's harder, but you can still go pretty far before you have to turn around. Ride a bike to a friend's house, stay overnight; visit a relative. Maybe they'll make you go back home; maybe not. At the least you'll get a few hours away.

I don't recommend going out alone if you can't safely do so, or if you are under the age of 14, roughly (or under the age of 10 if you're just going someplace very nearby in your own neighborhood). I ran away when I was that young, but I wasn't ready and I'm lucky I wasn't hurt. Unless your home is unsafe... in that case, run as far as you can, find a public place, and get somebody to call the cops to help you stay safe. Be specific about what danger you are in. Police officers tend to hate child abuse, and if you are in immediate danger, it's good to have one between you and an aggressive parent.

When I was little, I was locked out of my grandmother's house all day; she didn't want to deal with me..
In that, I would wander for miles on my own, exploring the small town I was in and eating honeysuckle, or whatever
seemed edible. I was able to climb roofs and do pretty much all I wanted until the police arrived. xD My point is
I have had a taste of pure freedom in a way... no place to go, and I went where I wanted because I was a little child.
I met people that I never would have if I was able to stay home. Not all of them great encounters, but some really kewl.
I miss that feeling and I want to do this...

This world is filled with things I'll never understand. I, too, have had the urge to pack it all up and leave.
The only thing that keeps me here is my cat and my mother.

I have had huge, huge vision (lucid dreaming/oobe weirdness) this past winter, like it was a movie;
The people have become fed up with the governments and the economy plunged into another Depression,
except for it was worldwide! A long train of (walking/hiking) people were dressed like vagabonds/nomads, wearing their old
coats in layers, and many of them going slowly through a heavy snowfall.
Trudging through the snow, with only the possessions they could carry.
I remember running back and forth to make sure everyone was keeping up.
We left behind the cars, etc and packed up tents and a backpack full of things needed.
And then we wander off into some woods and make a temporary place of our own. Escaping the race
for money; escaping the condescending stares of society and their rude behavior, and the governments
overbearingly controlling your life.

We do not need material possessions. We are not what we consume. What we consume is consuming us...

I once talked to a guy and wanted to plan on finding a deserted island and start our own village with others.
There are actually quite a bit of land out there that is untouched. I hate to ruin it, so we would make shelters
with nature, kind of like the Native (American) Indians. Waste nothing, and keeping our natural surrounds in balance,
like we were meant to! For every tree fallen, you must plant 3 more.
I would have helped make solar panels (they can be made pretty cheaply), and construct a greenhouse
to plant things. You can easily make anything out of recyclable goods. Cans, glass, tires, just imagine...
Unfortunately, we both failed, due to lack of support. Everyone's too damn afraid!! !
I know things would be a little difficult, but can you imagine returning to survival mode?
That is what is wrong with everyone. We are losing touch with nature and our human side!
Our... instincts are dying and we are losing purpose in today's world. It's the same old crap again.
When are you going to realize that huge civilizations always fall, they fail. We need to return to our
roots, and stop building up like this.

You know, why couldn't a bunch of us do that? I know it's hard to trust others, and it has to be earned. But anything is
possible if enough people wanted to do it.

I have a habit of disappearing or running away quiet regularly because I am not able to cope with the situation, personal issue I have been dragged into and I do not want to be involved in. I regularly change my mobile phone number new sim card, block the people wanting me to take sides in their personal issues on facebook make new facebook profile to get people to leave me alone and not involve me in their personal issue and make the unit I live in look as if noone is living there or noone is home regularly. Mum has been so concerned because I didn't answer the phone for two days or I changed my phone number and did not tell her that she turned up crying thinking something had happened to me. I can go a couple of weeks without anyone knowing where I am even though I am at home and I haven't gone anywhere. The people who involved me in there personal issues end up giving up because they are not able to get in touch with me or find me. Even when I was working at a Disability workshop or business services as they are called now when everyone decided to come to me with all their problems and fights and I was having trouble with a girl who was bullying me I would just disappear and walk out of the disability workshop and go home everyone at work plus my parents were trying to ring me concerned of where I am I had turned my phone off or changed my sim card I would go a couple of days after that with no contact with anyone not even my family who were so concerned about my welfare. I ended up just leaving the disability workshop and I have never gone back.

I wanted to run away when I was a teen because I was so unhappy at home. I felt abandoned. I didn't like how I was being treated and what was happening in the household. Only reason why I stayed home is because I wouldn't know where to go and I would have to leave all my stuff behind and I had a roof over my head and food and all my video games were there and I got to shower every night and shave. I tried several times as a kid but I always came home in less than a day because I get bored and didn't know where else to go. I remember running away once when I was 15 after one major meltdown and anxiety and anger but I ended up coming home maybe a couple hours later. When I was 20 I felt like I didn't want come home because of my boyfriend at the time.


Then this year I would get ugly thoughts in my head of leaving my husband because he couldn't work anymore because he fell and hurt his back. So our money was tight and I hated it. But I knew running away leaving him wouldn't do me any good because the financial problems would still be there. I would still be on my own raising our son and it be even more stressful so I was trapped. Plus who would pay the bills at my apartment? My husband and I share the same bank account and my whole entire paychecks were paying for it all. I basically wanted to run away from it all. Run away from the stress and all but I knew the stress would just follow me out of the apartment so I stayed.

Hmmm, to run away...I guess it could be thought of as a fantasy in a way. I actually can run away in my fantasies---in meditative type states. I wouldn't want to leave my family though in real life. But I have thought about a little vacation on my own, but I've yet to pursue it. I think I would more like to run away from my job---it has been very stressful this year---to the point of having physical effects on me.

I have fantasies about this all the time. I'd love to pull an "Into the Wild" and just go off and leave it all behind. I'd keep my car, though, and would never end up in Alaska. My one problem would be what I would do once the money ran out.

I can't control what happens in my head and have extreme difficulty making simple decisions. (I once took 12 hours to make a simple decision). I believe I am already unable to control my mind anymore.

I am tempted to harm myself. I want to use my swiss army knife and cut my arms but I know it's wrong and there is no rational reason for harming yourself like that.

I sometimes fantasize about running away for just 3 days. I remember Forrest Gump did that and felt better after running away for years. I am sure I won't do it but the thought is always there.

Funny, I forgot I started this thread - I saw the subject line and thought: YES! It's on my mind a lot.

Do you have any supports, Luska?

I think I am going to go start an imaginary trip post - we can run away together in our minds