Webalina wrote:
Random42 wrote:
... Even if I end up having fun they are still somewhat stressful...
This is the weirdest part for me. When I attend a gathering it's almost never as bad as I anticipate. But when the time comes for the next one, I completely forget that I made it through the previous one and get stressed out all over again.
I have made this observation too. I have "fun", but do I find it
inherently fun? not really, it's more superficial. There has to be some reason why the default party statement is "I don't want to do this" even though there have been many times in the past where it was fun. I teeter on the balance waiting for something bad to happen. So I am still putting a strong effort in to remaining vigilant, whether I realize it or not. I assume many other people at the party are essentially free of this type of stress. The fun isn't thorough enough for me to be excited for the next party.