Standarduser wrote:
Ok this is starting to get creepy. I cant focus at all. I laugh and cry at the same time. Im starting to laugh spontaneously without any reason. Made an appointment with a psychiatrist, but i think i may be going mental here - no kidding. Am i losing a grip on sanity?
No. You're not.
I have been feeling this way for a long time.
In my case, I was simply chronicaly depressed, I didn't realized up to what point I was depressed until I got into medication (I'm currently on antidepressants). I'm
not saying that this is your case, I'm just stating that your symptoms doesn't necessarily involve any loss of sanity. I have been feeling in a similar way and I consider myself a sane person (I hope so, at least).
What was the problem? In my case, I react to depression in a different way. I'm a very goal focused person with an absolutely logical mind. I have emotions, o course, but it's like they're in a 'separate' folder from my logical mind. So, when I'm depressed, I am not depressed in the traditional way. People around me can even think that I'm the happiest person in the group. But I feel blocked and usefulness.
And that's the issue: I never took antidepressants (until last year) since I never felt depressed. I felt 'blocked' or 'jammed' (not exactly that, but this word is the closer one I can find to describe it). Focusing in what I was doing has been a nightmare for a long time. And trying to explain how I was feeling to NTs was another nightmare. Nobody could understand ever what I was trying to explain, and I was accused more than once of complaining without reason, from where I got that the way I feel depressed is completely different from most of people out there.
I'm not saying that this is your case. I'm just saying that what you describe is not necessarily insanity.
I dont want to live on medications. Is there another solution?
04 Apr 2013, 5:48 am
