Dressing strangely, unaware of it, embarrassment
People make a big deal over how I dress. It's often commented on. Some people seem intrigued by it. Others seem somewhat critical of it. It mostly amuses me that it's something they take notice of, since the way others dress makes no impact on me whatsoever. One friend, a cool 80 year old German lady has said more than once, "ja, Brian has hast own style". Of course I really have no idea what style is. My 19 year old niece who's planning on becoming a fashion designer said I dress kind of "boho" hippie biker style. Boho she explained stands for bohemian / hobo. Oh and someone else says I dress like Serpico from the '73 Al Pacino movie. Whatever. I've always bought most of my cloths at thrift stores, so I guess that's part of it. I have a dear old friend from childhood who's kind of like second mother, who's Native American. She sells a lot of Native American necklaces and bracelets, made of leather with beads and pipe bones etc. and sends me an item out of her inventory once in a while. So I'm often wearing a lot of that stuff as well because she makes it and I like it so much. I grew up around a lot of musicians, hippies and bikers, Indians and even gypsies, so I guess maybe that's where it comes from ![]()
I recently had a cello performance, in which I wore a loose-fitting sweater dress and...I'm now embarrassed to say, these asian kung fu pants which I really like. It makes me feel like an elf, and that is the only way I express femininity in a way I am comfortable with. However, other people cannot interpret how I dress in that way. My mom pointed it out, and lovingly told me to change how I dress in order for the world to take me seriously. But tights/leggings are hard for me to wear, because they feel so constricting and terrible, and they don't feel like "me" so I feel kind of naked. Ballet flats or high heels also make me feel totally alien. I feel really, really embarrassed a lot when people point this type of thing out. I wish people were more open to different kinds of clothes. Dressing formally is especially difficult, because it's really gender-oriented, the clothes are flimsy and make me feel unsafe/exposed, and so I just don't know what to do! It's so hard.
When I was in the university I used to dress casual (usually with sweatshirts with a hook), had a beard and long hair. Indeed, I was called 'Robin Hood' more than once
After this I tried to dress better, to be in fashion, or cool, or whatever. Never got it really, I'm very bad at it. What I have learn after quite a while? Dress however you like. If you feel fine with it, then it's fine. Now I avoid headaches and I'm happier and more confortable.
Of course, some situations (job, performances, and so) involve a specific dress code. Then follow this dress code during those situations and that's all. Don't make any specific situation dress code an identity issue. Indeed, don't make your dress an identity issue. If you must follow some dress protocol, follow it, the rest of time, dress as you like.
PS Why an organ composer (Buxtehude) as a nick instead of a cello one?
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I recently had a cello performance, in which I wore a loose-fitting sweater dress and...I'm now embarrassed to say, these asian kung fu pants which I really like. It makes me feel like an elf, and that is the only way I express femininity in a way I am comfortable with. However, other people cannot interpret how I dress in that way. My mom pointed it out, and lovingly told me to change how I dress in order for the world to take me seriously. But tights/leggings are hard for me to wear, because they feel so constricting and terrible, and they don't feel like "me" so I feel kind of naked. Ballet flats or high heels also make me feel totally alien. I feel really, really embarrassed a lot when people point this type of thing out. I wish people were more open to different kinds of clothes. Dressing formally is especially difficult, because it's really gender-oriented, the clothes are flimsy and make me feel unsafe/exposed, and so I just don't know what to do! It's so hard.
It makes me feel less embarrassed when I think that Temple Grandin wears her cowboy shirts over and over, which I've never seen anyone do, so that's reassuring.
Does anyone have any kind words or ideas about this? Does anybody relate to this kind of issue?
It's all relative. As long as you're not dressing like this you should be OK:
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Embrace your personal style and don't back down or feel embarrassed. You should wear the clothes that are "you"; those are exactly the right sort.
Present yourself to the world as yourself. Sure, you could hide who you are and pretend to be normal... but that would be a true shame, because then you rob the world of your unique beauty... and you are subduing the side of yourself that wants to freely express who you are.
Dressing the way they want you to dress... it is like conceding to not being acceptable the way you are. And you are better than that. Be you, fully.
Don't be embarrassed! If someone says you look peculiar, instead of shame, feel pride. Damn right you are peculiar, own your uniqueness, wear it with pride and honor. Not everyone is unique, so many people follow the trend, so many conform to the expectation of the masses... don't be just another carbon copy, not when you have an urge to be who you are, to be yourself. Just be you, dress in your black cargo pants... genuine people with open minds will love you all the more for it.
If someone does care and thinks less of you, you just get an earlier warning this way, because they are shallow and callous and you should probably be avoiding their narrow minded prejudice ass in the first place.
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