Callista wrote:
It's good to be able to keep tabs on your own symptoms. I guess it gets a little more complicated if one of your symptoms is worrying about your symptoms! But still, self-awareness is a good trait to have, and even though hyper-awareness makes you vulnerable to anxiety, it's better than not knowing where your problems lie. Just remember that you have the tendency to be very aware of your own symptoms, and that this means they will seem much more obvious to you than they otherwise might. That will help you think in more realistic ways rather than worrying about whether you are going to go nuts all the time!
Thanks. It's good to have clinicians who can help put things into perspective. But yes, wondering if I will go nuts: to be honest, I have a kind of detached curiosity about going nuts, which offsets the worry. With my more hyperaware state, I wonder what sorts of things I would be able to observe this time around. When I went nuts when I was 14, I don't remember much, and tried to kind of blot that from my memory. Nevertheless, one bad thing about going nuts is that you tend to feel very miserable leading up to it, and some of the recent misery reminded me of how miserable my symptoms felt leading up to the psychotic episode at 14.
19 Jun 2013, 4:24 pm
