What do your meltdowns look like? (If you have them)

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Like a toddler having a temper tantrum or a kid who is throwing a fit.

I'm relatively unsure that I have them, but I did have an breakdown of thought, where I couldn't string a decent sentence together. Accompanied by headaches, a higher loss of balance and a sense where I've slowed to a crawl and time flies by. Things I enjoy doing didn't find enjoyment with. hallucinations, insomnia, voices and having very odd feelings, like a combined feeling for happiness and anger.

I believe it was triggered by being overwhelmed with many things, visual and audio overload, being under pressure from all corners of life. Expectations that others want from you and where emotion run's high everywhere, basically getting conflicting positive and negative messages from everywhere, taking all that in I perhaps lost my mind.

Treatment was just to rest, a quiet place, regain lost sleep and start filtering out the bizarre and random thoughts and basically recoil into my own inner world. Where dreams also become random. I can give a example of the voices I can remember well, they are always different. (Too bad for them auction eyes, spoken in a menacing laughing voice. Lisa, kill me, whats the difference, in a monotone robotic voice. And Dublin's more uneven analogies, spoken in a drunken male voice) apart from the voices, I can also hear out of place noise, like gunshots, alarms, bells, ringing, and others, visually I can see flashing colors or see patterns when my eyes are closed.

Depending ob the severity, it takes at least three days to recover, rest, hydrate, just basically calm environments. These are rare as I have a few of those a year at best.

I have two types of meltdowns the angry fit and the crying fit. Either way they look.very childish and enbarrasing at 30 years old.

More "shutdowns" than "meltdowns": the world seems to get too bright and loud, then start to fade out--hearing muffled, and not really noticing much around me. Then, my thinking seems to turn off completely and I'm operating on automatic pilot. Occasionally, my heart will start racing, like I'm having a panic attack at the same time.

Sometimes I want to cry or scream for no discernible reason at all. I can usually wait until I get someplace private.

Occasionally, I then will cry and scream, usually in my bathroom, ranting and raving about some random thing that made me angry and/or upset either that day, the previous day or even a week ago--things tend to "build up" until they explode.

They're usually brought on by stress, exhaustion and/or sensory overload. Most of the time, no one ever sees them (I'm a bit of a control freak ).