AspicViper wrote:
I don't mean diapers or spit ups or anthing like that and I'm not trying to sound tottaly heartless either. But do you get grossed out just by looking at a baby? I'm fine with puppies, kittens, insect hatchlings and things that most other people would find digusting but I am tottaly appualed by human babies. I never played with dolls and told my mother when I was four that I never wanted children of my own. When my cousions and neice were infants I would hide in my bedroom until it was time for them to leave.
I wouldn't say I'm grossed out, but I definitely get freaked out by them and the younger they are, the more freaked out I get. I too was always that way and I come from a huge family (just to give you an idea, they have thanksgiving in a hall, not a house). I was always surrounded by kids and babies and I too hid in my room until they left (which was every single Sunday and holiday). I waited until I was eight to spring the whole I'm not having kids thing on my mom, but frankly no one was surprised I didn't want them. Pregnancy freaks me out even more. I once had a co-worker stick my hand on her pregnant belly when her baby was moving and I jerked my hand away and started to shiver. I still think that has to be the most God-awful feeling on the face of the earth.
The funny thing is, I know what to do with them if I'm left with them, so people get confused. It isn't that I don't know what to do with them, it's that I don't want to do it. Babies just plain freak me out with their crying and neediness. If I spend one hour with one, I have to go into complete seclusion for a week to regenerate. I know most of this comes from the fact that I'm am so completely introverted that humans tax me in general, so the smaller the baby, the more they tax me with their incessant needs. It's just the way they are and the way I am. That's why I didn't have them.
I'm not much for puppies or kittens. I like to get animals when they are older. Again, it's a chaos factor. I'll deal with them if I have to, but it's extremely taxing on me to do so.