nightmares, hallucinations and spirits

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I used to have really horrific nightmares as well and have had about three or four episodes of major sleep paralysis that I can remember. Funny thing is I have a new ritual where every night I have been saying goodnight to my husband and to my brother and they say good night back to me and all that is accompanied by hugs and kisses and since I have been doing that I have not had a single nightmare at all. Before I used to never say good night to my brother and sometimes a lot of times my husband and I would go to sleep and even though we would sleep together we would often just fall asleep without saying the actual words Goodnight. But now for some reason, saying it makes a difference.

Before I went on anti-depressants I sometimes had hallucinations at night. I would wake up randomly and something in my head makes me certain that there's a spider on my bed somewhere, and I even ''remember'' seeing one, so I would run up and switch the light on and look around my bed, only to become rational and realise that it was in my head. I tried telling myself not to be so certain that I've seen a spider, because how would I be able to see a spider in my bed when it's dark? But those logical thoughts still got overrun by illogical thoughts telling me that I really did see a spider and I must switch the light on to check. I was beginning to get annoyed with this, and there didn't seem to be any way to stop me doing this nearly every night.
Also I used to wake up thinking that something heavy is about to fall and make a tremendous loud crash and wake up my family, so I would jump out of bed and reach my hand across to wherever I thought something was going to fall, sometimes actually knocking over something myself. Then I would get back into bed suddenly realising what the hell I was doing.

But since I went on anti-depressants it suddenly stopped these strange hallucinations, and I didn't go on anti-depressants for that at all.

Not too sure about the nightmares and hallucinations, but I can most definitely relate to the 'ghost' part.

Carl Jung calls it 'the Shadow' and it could be related to the Anima/Animus...but whatever it is, it's the 'dark half' of a person's psyche or soul.

So, what did I do when I found out? I confronted it head-on...I mean it is part of 'myself' after all so it would have a notion of preservation of ego, so once I knew it was part of my ego, I could handle it.

Thing is, it was only after that I found out that a real 'ghost' was there and I don't believe in 'ghosts'...it was more like an 'angel'...but it had no wings....there was definitely a 'being' there, which wasn't 'God' either and I knew it wasn't 'me' or a part of my own mind or personality...but whatever the heck it was I knew not...all I 'knew' was it was there and it could 'communicate' with me in ways that went totally beyond words...

Autism or not, I totally believe with all my heart that this 'thing' is real!

Yeah, it's like when you are trying to think of an answer to something and you KNOW you know it....the answer is right there, on the tip of your tongue but you can't remember it...

So hours/days later, you'll be doing something totally different and unrelated without any 'mental cues' at all....then suddenly you'll hear a 'voice' plain as day providing the answer to the riddle.

Just what the heck is that?