BirdInFlight wrote:
No, I don't do any singing at all now except at home or in the shower. I actually never liked public performance even though I stuck with it for years and years. I really pushed myself because I knew that if I wanted to get anywhere with my music, that's what you have to do.
Until one day I realized how much I hated it. Not the singing part -- just everything else that goes along with doing it publicly. I hated always being out late at night, especially when I had work the next morning. I hated being in front of an audience; I felt awkward and self conscious and I always kept my eyes closed while I sang and played. I forced myself to keep going for years simply because I knew that's what you're supposed to do to pursue a career in it -- but I really hated most of what it took. I wanted to get my music out there but I wished I didn't have to play for people. I think that was a huge way of my aspie self affecting me -- all I wanted to do was stay behind closed doors recording my stuff, or curled up in front of my TV in my pajamas, instead of out in some noisy bar at midnight playing for people whose eyes felt like daggers. I honestly hated "playing out."
So I stopped and just sang in the car or shower ever since.
I've recently read Nick Drake's biography and I'm convinced he was on the spectrum.
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It's a shame you hated it. I was the opposite, I loved every bit of it. I do well with public performances and even public speaking, I hear that many Aspie performers are actually like that. They do really well whenever they are performing but not when they are not. I did get really nervous if I had to solo though. But I think a lot of people do even if they are not on the Spectrum. That's normal.
It's just as wonderful to sing for yourself at home though. I love singing in the shower. Don't know what it is about the shower but I always seem to be in good voice there even without a proper warmup. Even my husband sounds good in the shower!
Eggheadjr. Maybe people would not throw things at you if you performed while in the shower! :p
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