Hell for people with AS?

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I got a job in the back room of a sporting goods store putting on ski bindings. And another part time job filling out orders for a western clothes company... this was in Denver. I got a room in a house with several other teenagers. We listened to Ray Charles, and ate cheap hamburgers. We never cooked. One of the older workers at the sporting goods store encouraged me to get back in touch with my parents, and to go back to college. I still remember his name fifty plus years later. Nine months later I rode a bus back to the east coast and was accepted at a university in Washington, DC. My parents were very angry with me, but my first semester I wrote a long short story about a road trip I took with a friend while I was in Denver, and it got me into the university's new honor's program. I did well in school. I took many years to get through though because the Viet Nam war was raging, and they were constantly trying to draft people my age. I always had a part time job, and an old beater to drive around town. I was a hippie, and had some friends since I had travelled by thumb across the country, and wore a serape'.

Well as a kid much of the time going to school I got bullied every day, even had teachers who thought it was fun to single me out in front of other kids....so there is that kind of hell. Though I did not have a diagnoses, but whatever still had aspergers than just as much as I do now.

tall-p, thank you for filling in some more of the story; it's good to read for lots of reasons which I won't go into as it'd be off topic.

anxiety, mis-communication, financial worries, sensory problems, depression

They will be... just give it awhile. (just not too long though)

- Painful/annoying sensory issues
- Constant anxiety
- Constant depression
- Discrimination from people who don't understand ASD
- Confusing social/societal demands that don't seem to faze NTs
- Slow mental processing

These are the main things I can think of.

For me its mostly sensory issues now and general muscle pain and fatigue ( fibromyalgia-like symptoms).
Depression and anxiety were the worst though, before I finally got rid of them through some dietary changes.
Going through school with undiagnosed AS was hell.
Locked up in a room with 30 noisy kids all day, with a couple of nasty bullies to keep me miserable with
no escape, that was really difficult. I loved learning but I hated school, mostly because of that painful constant din
and commotion and for getting ostracized.
So glad I'm grown up and don't have to go there anymore, but school-nightmares are still haunting me often at night.
Today my earplugs are my best friends, although I get sore ears when I use them too much.

All that, and the world, even outside of work, wants you to be "part of a team" but then yell at you when you are on their team. I hate teamwork and this is just about the only place I can say that.