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15 Sep 2014, 12:59 pm

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I tried to commit suicide today. It is about university. My mood has been all over the place. Now I am so depressed that this morning I was walking to a motorway to jump in front of a heavy goods vehicle. My friend talked me out of it. I have been prescribed Clonazepam. I will be pursuing legal advice on the university situation, with the help of my support workers, friends and my dad. I had a really bad meltdown today that the neighbours were going to call the police on me. I am suffering.

Oh Honey, I wish I could be with you right now to comfort you. You know you are loved so much here and we never want to lose you. This thing with your school is horrible and I can understand why you are so hurt and desperate. Hang in there and know that we are all here for you.
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15 Sep 2014, 1:13 pm

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If it ever gets that bad, come here to The Haven forums and you will get a lot of support, often from those who know exactly what you are going through.

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15 Sep 2014, 1:15 pm

Thanks.

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15 Sep 2014, 1:41 pm

Please keep us posted on how you are. And by the way, the new blue you chose is wonderful. Thank you!

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15 Sep 2014, 2:19 pm

skibum wrote:

Please keep us posted on how you are. And by the way, the new blue you chose is wonderful. Thank you!

I will do. I have typed up a letter to my support worker about university and my thoughts. Also I will be contacting by email the Equality and Human Rights Commission about the (il)legality of what my uni are doing.

I am considering having a 48 hour silence. From Tuesday lunchtime when I finish with my support worker, until Thursday lunchtime when I see my support worker again. No talking, just typing and texting. It will reset my brain and help me relax.

You're welcome about the colour.

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15 Sep 2014, 2:25 pm

I like the 48 hour silence idea very much. I think that will help you rest and you definitely need to rest. Make sure you stay hydrated and well fed too and that will help you feel better. It's good to write the letter too. Is your dad going to be able to help you?

I have to go out for a couple of hours but I will check again here to see how you are getting by when I get back. Do get rest though.
Hugs.

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16 Sep 2014, 12:50 am

Thanks. I've typed up a letter for my support worker. I think it is a strong letter directed at my uni. My support worker will then see how important being a student at uni is to me.

I'm looking forward to the 48 hour silence. I've done some online food shopping which got delivered yesterday to my doorstep, a lot of healthy food.

I'll be going cycling with my support worker at a club for disabled cyclists today.

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16 Sep 2014, 1:34 am

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This all sounds very good. Enjoy your cycling. The ride and good food will make you feel much better. I might even go for a bike ride too!

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16 Sep 2014, 11:10 am

SteelMaiden, do you enjoy taking classes at Uni? Do you like what you are studying?

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17 Sep 2014, 6:08 am

SteelMaiden wrote:

Sorry to read about your circumstances. Good luck sorting out the situation at your uni.

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17 Sep 2014, 12:46 pm

Thanks.

48 hour silence is helping.

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17 Sep 2014, 2:49 pm

That is great. Enjoy your special day. Silence is Golden!

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18 Sep 2014, 10:51 am

skibum wrote:

That is great. Enjoy your special day. Silence is Golden!

Silence was great. I recharged well. However I'm going out with my mum this Saturday or Sunday, damn.

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18 Sep 2014, 8:52 pm

I'm usually VERY quiet in public. When I do find a subject I can contribute to, and start talking, I'm always worried that I'm boring people. This doesn't apply online at all!! ! Weird. :roll:

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