Can you be around people?

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Me too!!
I remember when i spent something like a month of holiday of work AND university at my home without ever going out for anything and everyone was acting like if i was depressed or with some serious problem when, in fact, i was feeling SO GOOD and SO RESTED.
I can be around people, if they are well known by me and at least a bit quiet. It's bad that there are just a few who fit this description ):

I can be around people, but not for extended periods of time. I get annoyed being around people after awhile and start to get stressed out.

Though, there are a few exceptions, like my Mom. I can be around her all day with no issue. My Dad a little less so.

I can't stand being around people if there is ANY pressure to actually interact. If I'm in a crowd but know that I can get away with ignoring everyone then I can do fine, but I'd still rather just be at home by myself.

I can do okay 1-on-1 for limited periods, but I get burnout/exhaustion afterwards and sometimes will feel pretty emotionally yucky for some time, even if I had a good time with the person. It's a feeling that makes me NOT want to repeat the social experience, even if it was good at the time. Like when you've had one too many hangovers and decide that the enjoyment you get from drinking just isn't worth the hangover anymore.

This weekend I had an old friend from high school come over with her family-- I hadn't seen her in over 10 years. I had to talk myself down from pre-social-anxiety for 2 days straight and keep reassuring myself that it would be "fine" and I'd get through it. This is even though "in theory" I actually did want to see her and meet her son and her meet my children. But it still scared the hell out of me. Well, we did have a really good time and her family wasn't scary at all (in fact I think her husband is probably on the spectrum and we got along just fine.) But I'm still sitting here trying to fight off the inevitable social hangover.

My kids are the only ones I don't feel yucky being around. Yeah I need breaks from them just as any parent needs a break from their kids sometimes, but I don't feel the need to FLEE from them the way I do from pretty much everyone else on the planet. I'm fine with my husband too, but we have the kind of relationship where we can be in the same room for hours playing video games (different games) and not speak more than 2 words and be totally content with that.

It has occurred to me a lot lately that as much as I'm disgusted by the amount of smart-phone zombies walking around these days, I'm also very grateful to have that available as an excuse to be antisocial without anyone questioning it. I can be waiting at school to pick up my kids and just whip out my smart-phone and pretend to be busy with something (or actually be busy with something) and nobody would fault me for not wanting to chat up the other mommies nearby. I no longer have to find ways to look "too busy" which are obviously fake, or feel like people think I'm a snob for not wanting to say "hi" or join the conversation. With smart-phones, being totally antisocial in a roomful of people has become completely acceptable. I don't really think that's a GOOD thing, but it certainly helps me out in certain situations.

Other than my family I prefer to not be around groups of people. When I have no choice in the matter, things normally do not turn out well.