While I'm a little sensitive at times, I never have meltdowns or shutdowns.
I've never had shutdowns but I used to have terrible meltdowns when I was little, usually when something scared me and I couldn't express how I was feeling. Before I could talk, I screamed whenever I went into a shop in the fear that it sold noisy toys. Once my mum had to leave a charity shop because I wouldn't stop bawling.
One time in primary school, when I was about 7 or 8, I got really wound up because I heard a sound I didn't like and I wasn't allowed to run outside. I was so wound up that the fear turned into anger, and I threw a chair. I aimed it at a teacher but instead it hit the class fish-tank. Luckily, the teachers managed to save all the fish.
I think I was 10 when I had my last meltdown, and after receiving a lot of help to cope with my emotions and deal with them calmly, I never get to that point anymore.
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I'm sailing across Spectrum Sea, in my little boat.
The waters of the port were choppy. After I set off, there was a long, massive storm.
Years later, however, the sea calmed. I'm still on tranquil sea, but I'll never reach the Neurotypical Beach.