How were the first few days after diagnosis?

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I am not certain, but maybe this will help.

After I was diagnosed, I came across I read an interesting blog post describing the 4 Stages of Aspergers <click>.

I then posted about this on WP (A Different 4 Stages Of Aspergers – Where Are You? <click>)

Thanks again. It has moved me to read all of your posts. I identify with each one, I guess this is why I'm so confused? Haha.

And I'm trying not to care what my family think, as I do actually just want to continue as things are. They are almost always very supportive and I know I'm lucky to have them. The diagnosis has not changed that in any way.

It has started to sink in today and just feel normal, like "what was all that stress about?". I just have to get on with things how I did before, with better understanding and tools , but I've found I'm just naturally being a lot less harsh on myself and not worrying if I'm making odd movements or walking funny etc. If anyone says anything, or thinks anything, it's their problem not mine. I thought "How bad they'd feel if they knew they were laughing at an actual, properly disabled person :p ". That was just a joke to myself, but really it's true. I do find everyday things more difficult than most. I've got validation for all my difficulties and I can just let it all go and act as I want to act. I'm not naturally a horrible person or anything, so why not just be myself?

I wish I could've started this process before the official diagnosis, as I 'knew' already and my day-to-day life hasn't changed as much as the way I view myself. Self diagnosis could've done a lot more for me than it did, but the stress of the looming assessment clouded everything.

I told my yoga teacher today as she tailors each person to whatever difficulties/injuries they have. She knew I was going for assessment anyway. She just said she did teacher training with a guy with AS and he was really good, and that she knows others who "make a lot of money". I wish I was one of those! She basically said she realised it doesn't restrict people from having a good life. There was no problem and I didnt seem like she doubted it or anything, so my first public disclosure went well . She did use me as an example for the class of how to sort out a dodgy knee when I said mine was hurting though. I went very red- won't be shouting out again!

I remember the post. Think I'm at stage 3! and I'm meeting all the aspies from the online group tomorrow so hopefully stage 4 tomorrow

Actually quite excited to meet some of my "own kind". Dunno why, as I seem to have surrounded by them anyway! These ones are official though lol.