unnamed wrote:
Scrulie & Starbuline, we are all just too much alike!!

:) I've always felt I was being watched by my heroes, and I constantly have these running conversations in my head with people who aren't there. They're more like "rehearsals" of conversations. I rehearse conversations constantly in my mind, and I think it's because now I'm aware of how badly I communicate verbally sometimes. I think it's due to growing up with AS. It makes us feel so socially insecure and self-conscious, and maybe it helps to play this stuff in our head because it makes us feel more competent! I've always enjoyed these habits, even though I knew NTs probably didn't do this. Glad to know it's a common aspie thing!!
Thats amazing, I do the "rehersal" thing too! I didn't know that anyone else did it, I thought it was just me being a weirdo. When I'm alone I imagine theres someone with me (sometimes its someone I know, other times its someone I just made up) and we're having a conversation. Sometimes I do it because I have a social situation coming up in the future that I'm nervous about and want to practice for, but other times I'm just lonely. What you said sounds exactly like me, I do it because I'm aware of how socially incompetent I appear to others and want to improve on it. But I'm not sure if these "rehersals" actually help or not.
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