Good morning there.
Well I have read it all now and thought a bit about things. You have made progress anyway. Going from a disability to a freak and now you see it as being a special sort of thing. Aspie I mean. We are not normal. And I for one am so glad, because I look at the world with all its problems and think that if thats the best the normal people can do then god help them. I am proud to be what I am. I am 44 and only been diagnosed for 5 or 6 years.
I went to see a shrink after a very truamatic experience and he didnt believe that I was an aspie, then while I was working, I was a truck driver doing rock and roll tours, I met a doctor in Spain who was on holiday in Barcelona, and his speciallity was Asperger's. He said to me " How long have you known?", " Known what? I asked" Turns out that this guy worked for Harvard medical centre researching Asperger's.
I have a mild form. Anyway, we talked for 6 hours and it was great. Someone who understood. So my belief in shrinks and pills is very low. My shrink gave me pills. The best thing I and I repeat I, ever did was to get the hell off my pills and start seeing the world for what I was. Special, different. I think that you have crossed a line by saying that you are special. We are all special. ITS GREAT. Never mind the normals, they can never understand the world we live in. A world where there is no grey, no maybe. Just plain old simple right and wrong, black and white, left and right and no middle ground. To my mind of thinking, if a shrink hasnt got Asperger's then how the hell can he understand it?
I dont know if everyone thinks the way I do here but DONT hide away. Be proud. I get very frustrated with people who dont live ( not going to say suffer because I dont suffer) the way that I have to. I suffer fools very badly and I suffer the ignorant even less. But a wonderful philosophy on life that I always remember is " who is more foolish, the fool, or the ones that laugh at the fool."
Like you I am left handed. I wanted to write a book, but never got around to it, so write your book. Throw yourself into it. Doesnt matter what anybody thinks. Its yours. And your music, the fact that you have discussed this with other musicians who you converse with is good. They should realise that they have somebody with a very unique brain working with them.
They now think that Einstein, Mozart and Da vinci were aspies. So go from disabiltity to Mozart and SMILE, SMILE, SMILE.
I work away but this week I am off work. I will answer you as much as I can but dont fret, I am not saying I know the answers to everything, I sometimes wonder if I know the answers to anything. But I can listen and think.
17 Apr 2007, 6:12 am
