I really don't mind being unusual. But if it's obviously and immediately apparent, it makes life hard. I need to be able to fake being normal at certain times.
Lately, though, I feel like I don't care to try. I went out today to run errands, and just behaved naturally. I could tell some people were avoiding me or giving me looks. I didn't really want to socialize or pretend to be normal. I was anxious, and overwhelmed, and I just wanted to do what I needed to do and leave.
I don't know if it's better to try very hard to appear normal, stress myself out and still not fully succeed, or to not bother trying at all and be even more obvious while scaring away everyone who I come into contact with.