Depression symptoms within the ASD community

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My symptoms include not wanting to get out of bed all day, to just go back to sleep to a happy land.

I was crying all the time even without any reason. Just tears rolling down my face. Started to lose some of my hair and my hands were trembling constantly. Depression is an ugly thing I must tell you.

Faustjonson

Mines was similar and I would cry without knowing I was crying and I very rarely cry. Maybe once every few years.

I had some bald spots on my head where I had lost hair, although I really couldn't care less.

I stopped wanting to sleep and on average would have to stay awake 20 - 24 hours before I could sleep.

At the worst I was awake for 3 days.

During this time though i was 99% engrossed on my pc and could stay on it for 20 hours at a time. When I was on it
everything else became a blur.

I also wrote poems which were very dark but helpful. I can only write poems when I am deeply depressed, which is a bit weird

I have experienced varying degrees of depression for 45 years.
It ranges from a mild inability to focus with continual feelings of inadequacy to a soul-crushing wave of darkness that makes me feel I am drowning in life. This can be accompanied by levels of anxiety that render me incapable of thought or action. On occasion I have considered suicide but not because I wish to die (I see life as wonderful on an objective level) but I just want the pain to stop.