BenJ wrote:
yeah i get this... in large groups it is worse. It also bad when I havent said anything for a few days because i have been alone. Sometimes i feel like my voice and myself are two seperate entities and that the two are seperated in some indescribable way.
I am the same. I think it is from being alone so much and having conversations in my head that I forget how to make words.
If I am under pressure to talk about something stressful then I also can`t speak but it is a different experience. When I was younger I used to literally freeze when feeling threatened until the threat (usually a shouting parent) went away.
I had a breakdown a few years ago and really forgot how to speak - I had to relearn the names of things like a stroke patient or something.
Occasionally though I just start talking an can`t stop - again as a reaction to being alone so much, not speaking and then it all having to come tumbling out.
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