Uncle wrote:
kraftiekortie wrote:
Please do remember that you're not an outsider even if you're not "formally" diagnosed.
This site is not just for "officially" diagnosed people. It's for a wide variety of people--anybody who is sympathetic to autism, really, even if they are NT as hell.
Thanks Kraft! Means a lot that comment! But still feel somewhat distant, but that can also be reflective of how i have always felt round people. Also i need to hear it definitively, its like a huge build up of a sigh of relief that suddenly gets wrenched away from you when a psychologist puts in there report that there that a formal diagnosis would not make a difference as well as a few other totally uncharacteristics that she has now decided to put down on my medical record for eternity.. Trust was one of my largest issues when seeing the third ""Professional"""and she has managed to certainly destroy that as far as her ""profession opinion"" goes! its so simple but so complicated to portray, but these are also people that have not spent any time or very little time with those on the spectrum... Its not that i want a label at all, but a way i can understand myself more in a world i literally feel alien in... but as many will know, some of these people only seem to observe whats seen on the outside and do not understand the turmoil and torture that is felt every second on the inside...This isn't meant to be a sob story, but is very real to me and my experiences on many different varying degrees..

Wow I feel for you and your struggle ><
I feared this would happen to me when I finally looked for a diagnosis but ended up incredibly lucky and in the hands of an Autistic PHD Psychologist who ONLY works with high functioning autism. He doesn't believe in cures or training us like NT's.
Fight for your diagnosis, don't let them discourage you
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