Angry you were born?

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Not at all angry, just happy that I'm alive and well.

Were I conceived one day later or one earlier, I wonder if I would end up how I did. If I were born 30 years into the future, I would be closer to being alive when the cures and treatments to so much suffering would be gone. I would be alive in a future world with fewer of the problems we face today. I resent the years lost in finding the answers due to the interference of neurodiversity. I envy the next generation who have more hope than I ever will. I hope I get another life after this because it is a human right to be free from this crap.

I've been angry that my parents chose to have children (though not because I'm autistic) and angry that I was misdiagnosed and mistreated by the school system. My parents were taught that getting married, having children, and entrusting those children to school, church, and other authority figures was what 'normal' people did, what they were supposed to do. Really, they didn't know any better, and from what I know of history, they were more understanding and nurturing than their parents before them.

Yes. Often. Im trying to amend that belief for the sakes of not living miserable, but life keeps s*itting that up.

I am lenient, with animals, children, and employees, but see alot of power plays, with no constructive purpose in mind, or which tend to be counterproductive.

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I don't believe it's appropriate, to raise children as scapegoats, or willingly set people up to fail, by way of social engineering and logical fallacies.

There is also a saying against living vicariously, through your kid, but, at least, a successor could be your emissary and source of unmitigated pride.

I feel that sabotaging something with your face and your name is a form of self harm and, if I made something, or grew it, to share with other people, would want them to see the best of my best.

No not angry at them. But many times simply wishing I had never been conceived in the first place. Why couldn't my mom have had a headache that night?

Ugh, now I'm grossed out thinking about my parents doing it.