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Again this is going to be highly contextual.
For example - I am very sensitive to noise. I do not compromise on noise issues. Others will NOT make certain noises around me. I don't care if they think it's nothing, or that I should lighten up - they are going to shut that noise up or I'm out of there. Same with touch. I don't care if other people view touch as something "nice" or are just trying to demonstrate that they "love" me - to me, being touched feels like being crushed, and I won't allow it.
But that is not due to selfishness. That is due to autism.
In other ways, people have pointed out to me that I cripple myself and deform my life in order to keep other people happy. Because damaging others is unethical to me, emotional drama repellent and invasion of personal privacy intolerable, I struggle to maintain a status quo that is often directly against my own best interests. People have told me I have to "live for yourself" more. If I was more selfish in that way, I would likely be better off.
Is that the sort of thing you mean?

I can definitely relate to this.

Last edited by Sauvain on 07 Aug 2017, 1:48 pm, edited 1 time in total.

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anyone can label anything or anyone as "selfish".

like everyone else, i am selfish sometimes and not as selfish sometimes.

but i ain't no Mother Theresa. nor am i awesome in any other way. unlike precious lil "people", i do not act like the greatest thing since sliced bread either.

but yeah i prefer to be alone. some of it's that i enjoy being alone more. some of it's that precious lil "people" just get on my nerves.

someone could label that as "selfish". someone could label anything as "selfish".

my precious lil "mom" had the nerve to tell me that it was "selfish" for me to wanna go enlist the Air Force when i was 20 years old. (rolls eyes).

on the other hand, whatever. at that time, did not have an official diagnoses that were disqualifications at Military Entrance Processing Station.

and now, got plenty:

depression, anxiety, over six months counseling, obsessive compulsive disorder and five other personality disorders,

irritable bowel syndrome, autism


and about two weeks ago president trump tweeted that the military will not take trans applicants anymore. thus reversing obama's ruling from last year.

so whatever

and besides that i am also emotionally fragile, mentally slow, socially awkward.

those kind of character flaws do not belong in the military.