25 Nov 2017, 1:16 am
kraftiekortie wrote:
Asperger's is not an "inability," say, to notice subtle nuances in facial expression. It is, perhaps, a "lesser ability" to notice subtle nuances in facial expression.
Some of what comes natural to non-autistic people has to be learned by autistic people.
Some of what comes natural to non-autistic people has to be learned by autistic people.
I start to notice it well ever since that sensory issues isn't a daily-basis problem thing to me anymore, and then started working on it. Even surer and worked out faster with my recent acquisition of stronger diatom lenses.
But for now, my priority lies on executive functioning than subtile reading.
My own conclusion for now is that:
Maybe, it has something to do with sensory input combined with working memory.
Autistics already have trouble dealing and distracted with constant stimuli and overloaded with the lack of filter, let alone sensing subtile ones clearly.
In terms of attention, we kinda initially sense everything almost equally and with little sense of context and priority. At this part, it can be steered into conscious effort of reading body language and cues, and why it's draining.
Also why I kinda concluded that certain social perceptions are 'shunned' by the limitations of the human mind with the experience of the autistic brain. Also why social learning had to be explicit to work around it.
It doesn't help with the life experiences of constant rejection, social anxiety, pessimism, and more negative experiences. Also it didn't helped with the lack of balance of all or nothing mentality.
It didn't help the obvious lack of social interest, or overworked with desperation that it'll forget other routes and strategies simply because a form of strategy that worked so far and it is deemed the only safe way since we tend to be concrete thinkers and have this need for certainty and order.
It didn't helped with over thinking either, and make everything seem like a gamble.Then there are so many more.
And kinda how I kept finding where to draw the line and distinguish the subtile differences of similar things -- not only concrete and obvious stuffs, but also abstract and hard to reach parts.
I found many, but to explain it how and why -- ah, that's when either I'd start laughing at myself or frustrated by how complex it is to write it down into words or becoming into a weird rant. 
But yes, I sense something but what it is I do not know.
Almost all the time. I just don't pay attention to it all too often, but I do work on finding what it meant little by little every time it presents itself.
