DaneClark wrote:
For the past year and a half I've been making various crazy - sounding posts here about problems that I think are being caused by a combination of dissociation and aspergers. As time goes on I've slowly been able to recover without having to go down the crazy paths I've tried to describe before, but there's only so much I can do on my own.
One problem has to do with the fact that ones subjective viewpoint about something can change- because of the unusual way brain pruned all its pathways, it makes it feel like anything thats not absolutely "black or white" feel awkward, and yet it still seems like things need to be absolutely neutral in order to feel balanced, and this all feels like it can't be undone. Any data created between the time that I finally do find what I'm looking for is at risk of feeling like it was never encoded properly.
There's also the fact that my most powerful alt revolves heavily around the ability to inhibit my "intense world", which just doesn't compute to the weaker alts that I need back in order to re-balance everything.
Part of the problem of figuring out WTF you're talking about is that you speak in jargon (and its probably the wrong jargon- you're not an actual brain scientist, or psychiatrist, but you're self diagnosing with their terms, but you may not even be using their terms the way they would).
Its like you're calling your boss and saying "I cant get to work today because dihydrogen monoxide has chrystalized in the sky and fallen on the ground and covered the streets with deep deposits of igneous crystals" instead of saying " I am snowed in, and the snow plows haven't gotten here yet".
Just talk in plain English about what you are experiencing subjectively. And don't go into this stuff about pruning synapses, and your brain encoding data (that's for the professional shrinks to figure out).
But again...I don't even know why your looking for help from a bunch of unqualified strangers on the web anyway. You obviously need face time with an actual mental healthcare specialist.
12 Feb 2018, 7:24 pm
