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25 Aug 2019, 3:02 am
Broekenkakker wrote:
Hi Mountain Goat,
I didn't express myself well: it's not my partner who's taking a break from me, but my best friend (who I consider my soul brother). It hurts like hell. And now I'm dreading my birthday (which is next week), because I'm hoping he'll contact me for my birthday, since I have told him at some point birthdays are very important for me. But then, if he doesn't, if he continues this 'break' he started, I'll feel really hurt. I'm also very confused because I don't understand breaks. So I don't know if he'll ever be my friend again or what. And if he does, my 'protocol' has been shattered by this break, so I don't know how I'm supposed to act around him anymore. Is it like it was before the break, masks off, 100% honesty and truth at all times? Or should I use my scripts? I'm so utterly confused.
To the other user (sorry, can't remember your username): I don't really want to fit in. Something that my husband, my best friend and I always say (and remind each other) is how, even though we may have bad social skills, etc., we have the better end of the deal, being smart, having such a unique perspective about the world, being able to feel such passion about our special interests and learn so much on our own, etc. But I just wish I could have my friend back. If that doesn't happen, I wish I could be able to eventually get over this and be able to find the friend I've always dreamt of. The friend I thought I have found in this guy, who I see as my little brother, and who I hope will be my friend again, as we were before.
I don't want to be like the rest. Trust me. The rest of the people are so utterly boring...
I didn't express myself well: it's not my partner who's taking a break from me, but my best friend (who I consider my soul brother). It hurts like hell. And now I'm dreading my birthday (which is next week), because I'm hoping he'll contact me for my birthday, since I have told him at some point birthdays are very important for me. But then, if he doesn't, if he continues this 'break' he started, I'll feel really hurt. I'm also very confused because I don't understand breaks. So I don't know if he'll ever be my friend again or what. And if he does, my 'protocol' has been shattered by this break, so I don't know how I'm supposed to act around him anymore. Is it like it was before the break, masks off, 100% honesty and truth at all times? Or should I use my scripts? I'm so utterly confused.
To the other user (sorry, can't remember your username): I don't really want to fit in. Something that my husband, my best friend and I always say (and remind each other) is how, even though we may have bad social skills, etc., we have the better end of the deal, being smart, having such a unique perspective about the world, being able to feel such passion about our special interests and learn so much on our own, etc. But I just wish I could have my friend back. If that doesn't happen, I wish I could be able to eventually get over this and be able to find the friend I've always dreamt of. The friend I thought I have found in this guy, who I see as my little brother, and who I hope will be my friend again, as we were before.
I don't want to be like the rest. Trust me. The rest of the people are so utterly boring...
I don't want to change either. It has taken me years of being me to cope with this life and trying to change who I am... Well. For years people have been trying that. It has forced me into masking. It reached the point where I so hated all these unwritten rules that I wanted to rebel but I just couldn't fathom how or where to start to rebel, so I started with government, but then I looked at government and realized that they are in a situation like me! Like living in a loose ball of wool. All itchy and the more one strules the more tangled things become! And I don't know what's wool and what's me anymore, so attempting to try to demask... And when I do manage it I am suddenly exposed and vunerable!
Oh, how much I need a holiday. A break.
My Mum desperately needs it too.
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