11 Sep 2019, 7:39 pm
Mountain Goat wrote:
Edna3362 wrote:
If I can recall;
Impulsivity, inattention, more 'awkwardness', intrusive or unnecessary worrying, over thinking, procrastination, withdrawal, aversion of certain tasks and changes, sensory intolerance, mild tremors, stronger indecisiveness, certain degree of perfectionism or higher standards, 'need for assurance', increased 'rigidity', and strong yet effective fear based like motivation, worsen executive dysfunction, gastrointestinal sensations, heart palpitations, more frequent headaches, 'little to no intuition', less mental stamina, more prone to overreactions, rational overcompensations, degrees of alexithymia (anxiety as a muffling 'noise' and 'weight'), prosocial egocentrism...
It's also not an ideal mix in my current environments.
So many of these effects clashes with my 'paths', personality and preferences.
That I would have to overcome all of it before my adulthood instead of it being stuck with me while having to function with it; in other words, I cannot afford anxiety.
It makes me more 'unstable' and more consistently changed for the worse than I'm already been without it.
Impulsivity, inattention, more 'awkwardness', intrusive or unnecessary worrying, over thinking, procrastination, withdrawal, aversion of certain tasks and changes, sensory intolerance, mild tremors, stronger indecisiveness, certain degree of perfectionism or higher standards, 'need for assurance', increased 'rigidity', and strong yet effective fear based like motivation, worsen executive dysfunction, gastrointestinal sensations, heart palpitations, more frequent headaches, 'little to no intuition', less mental stamina, more prone to overreactions, rational overcompensations, degrees of alexithymia (anxiety as a muffling 'noise' and 'weight'), prosocial egocentrism...
It's also not an ideal mix in my current environments.
So many of these effects clashes with my 'paths', personality and preferences.
That I would have to overcome all of it before my adulthood instead of it being stuck with me while having to function with it; in other words, I cannot afford anxiety.
It makes me more 'unstable' and more consistently changed for the worse than I'm already been without it.
A few of those I get, but you have put so many details I can't think what it feels like even though I have had it today and am feeling it to a lesser degree now.
Some are more observable, some are subtle or deeper one wouldn't notice until someone pointed out.
Of course these symptoms doesn't always come out all at once.
And my own list is likely an incomplete list even.
It's just I know the differences in between, from not having any degree of it -- From having it yet:
Denying it, bottling it, getting by from it, having it subconsciously hidden/running on the background, and the obvious kinds similar and centering around the emotions of fear, worry, excitement, anticipation, anger... In between intensities.
Physically/chemically acquiring it, mentally/emotionally being induced by it, or having it from seemingly out of nowhere even if the present situation and your conscious mind knows otherwise.
And my post, can, sometimes overwhelm some.
Cannot help but spill several stuff at once, and still feel something is missing because either I recall a few more later, or that I cannot verbally describe it in words yet.
It's like presenting too many pieces of the puzzles, instead of the whole puzzle's picture.
11 Sep 2019, 7:48 pm
11 Sep 2019, 9:02 pm
Edna3362 wrote:
Mountain Goat wrote:
Edna3362 wrote:
If I can recall;
Impulsivity, inattention, more 'awkwardness', intrusive or unnecessary worrying, over thinking, procrastination, withdrawal, aversion of certain tasks and changes, sensory intolerance, mild tremors, stronger indecisiveness, certain degree of perfectionism or higher standards, 'need for assurance', increased 'rigidity', and strong yet effective fear based like motivation, worsen executive dysfunction, gastrointestinal sensations, heart palpitations, more frequent headaches, 'little to no intuition', less mental stamina, more prone to overreactions, rational overcompensations, degrees of alexithymia (anxiety as a muffling 'noise' and 'weight'), prosocial egocentrism...
It's also not an ideal mix in my current environments.
So many of these effects clashes with my 'paths', personality and preferences.
That I would have to overcome all of it before my adulthood instead of it being stuck with me while having to function with it; in other words, I cannot afford anxiety.
It makes me more 'unstable' and more consistently changed for the worse than I'm already been without it.
Impulsivity, inattention, more 'awkwardness', intrusive or unnecessary worrying, over thinking, procrastination, withdrawal, aversion of certain tasks and changes, sensory intolerance, mild tremors, stronger indecisiveness, certain degree of perfectionism or higher standards, 'need for assurance', increased 'rigidity', and strong yet effective fear based like motivation, worsen executive dysfunction, gastrointestinal sensations, heart palpitations, more frequent headaches, 'little to no intuition', less mental stamina, more prone to overreactions, rational overcompensations, degrees of alexithymia (anxiety as a muffling 'noise' and 'weight'), prosocial egocentrism...
It's also not an ideal mix in my current environments.
So many of these effects clashes with my 'paths', personality and preferences.
That I would have to overcome all of it before my adulthood instead of it being stuck with me while having to function with it; in other words, I cannot afford anxiety.
It makes me more 'unstable' and more consistently changed for the worse than I'm already been without it.
A few of those I get, but you have put so many details I can't think what it feels like even though I have had it today and am feeling it to a lesser degree now.
Some are more observable, some are subtle or deeper one wouldn't notice until someone pointed out.
Of course these symptoms doesn't always come out all at once.
And my own list is likely an incomplete list even.
It's just I know the differences in between, from not having any degree of it -- From having it yet:
Denying it, bottling it, getting by from it, having it subconsciously hidden/running on the background, and the obvious kinds similar and centering around the emotions of fear, worry, excitement, anticipation, anger... In between intensities.
Physically/chemically acquiring it, mentally/emotionally being induced by it, or having it from seemingly out of nowhere even if the present situation and your conscious mind knows otherwise.
And my post, can, sometimes overwhelm some.
Cannot help but spill several stuff at once, and still feel something is missing because either I recall a few more later, or that I cannot verbally describe it in words yet.
It's like presenting too many pieces of the puzzles, instead of the whole puzzle's picture.
Haha. Is like you sent me too many jigsaw pieces of information at once for me to work out where they all fit.
11 Sep 2019, 9:04 pm
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