Mountain Goat wrote:
emotrtkey wrote:
I think most autistic people start thinking they're different between 9 to 18 months old.
I don't know how that is possible at that age as one does not really meet others ones own age until one starts school at the age of four.
Most parents get frustrated, stressed , or disappointed if their kids don't behave appropriately. Most kids try to act better to please their parents. If you're autistic and can't act better but your parents don't know it, they'll keep getting frustrated and stressed at your behavior. If you sensed your parents weren't pleased with your behavior despite your best effort, you'd probably either blame your parents for being too harsh and feel rejected or blame yourself and think there was something wrong with you. That's how people can feel like they're different at such a young age.
Also, I used to be nonverbal and remember not talking because I was afraid people would think I was weird. Since most kids start trying to talk at 9 months and I didn't even try when I was a baby or a toddler, I probably felt different when I was 9 months old. I remember reading that autistic people start masking their differences when they are a toddler (1-3 years old).
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The funny thing about me is that often I assumed that I was the only "Normal" person around and everyone else was "Odd".
The other issue is that to me my Mum was normal and she was VERY different in her ways to other mothers, so my concept of normality was different from everyone elses if that makes sense?
Uhmm. I am not sure I am able to put my thoughts into ways that make sense. Haha.
I felt the exact same way for most of my life. I think what happened was I felt rejected when people judged me so I looked for faults in others so I could judge them.