Lol yeah a boyfriend I knew was bad for me but he was 'talented' in some ways so I tried to forget he was bad for me...
Playing a dice game with piles of coins in my bedroom for hours on end, trying to make one pile or the other one 'win'. All based on luck. Absolute waste of time. When I was 12-14.
Moved onto similar with brain trainer, a marble ball thing, milwordy (I'm proud of milwordy at least but man was it stressful!), now I have it with 'list challenges' and 'random number generator'. I like the mix of control & lack of control it gives.
When I was 13, I was in a town that had problems with the UVF and I hated them so I wanted to be in the IRA. I didn't question it at all. I'm still a believer in United Ireland but I'm also a believer in the peace process. So glad I moved away and moved out of that.
I had an online friend/boyfriend when I was 17 who started me off on conspiracy theories. I stuck with him til he made it all about being anti-Semitic & racist. He was an aspie supremacist and ended up being a white supremacist. I became an aspie supremacist too and thought the NWO were controlling the world & we were the next 'step along' in terms of evolution but were being termed as a disability cos we couldn't be controlled. Tbh I still don't think being HFA is 100% disability, I think it has some good parts to it, but so would being NT and everyone (LFA/HFA/NT/mentally ill) is equal in terms of value - we shouldn't be working towards a world where everyone has Asperger's like I wanted when I was 17 and thought 'NTs are stupid' etc.
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