Being Really Pissed Off Makes Me Smile Like A Sociopath
lastcrazyhorn wrote:
My roomie just tore me a new one. I'm one of those kinda messy AS types. It's not that I intend to be; I just don't see the mess until it hits a certain point. And it wasn't like I was leaving my mess on her side of the room or anything.
So instead of talking to me about this last week when it was really pissing her off, she just ignored me all week (something that really rubs me the wrong way) and went around slamming doors really loudly (something that REALLY wigs me out-- sudden loudness and all). So after she finished tearing me a new one, listing all this minute bs that only a neurotic preppy b***h (I'm living with a prep for god's sake) would care about, I'm left sitting silent, staring at the wall, violently shaking, feeling some good heartburn come on and, yes, smiling like a sociopath. Eyes wide, that sort of murderous glint in my eyes, smiling like I could kill someone and not give a damn. I hope she sees me and it freaks her out. F*ck her.
Anyone else get like this? How do you act when you get really pissed off? I'll accept any words of understanding/caring too.
So instead of talking to me about this last week when it was really pissing her off, she just ignored me all week (something that really rubs me the wrong way) and went around slamming doors really loudly (something that REALLY wigs me out-- sudden loudness and all). So after she finished tearing me a new one, listing all this minute bs that only a neurotic preppy b***h (I'm living with a prep for god's sake) would care about, I'm left sitting silent, staring at the wall, violently shaking, feeling some good heartburn come on and, yes, smiling like a sociopath. Eyes wide, that sort of murderous glint in my eyes, smiling like I could kill someone and not give a damn. I hope she sees me and it freaks her out. F*ck her.
Anyone else get like this? How do you act when you get really pissed off? I'll accept any words of understanding/caring too.
My husband is a messy AS type (by my standards anyhow, I'm one of the neat freak, clutter-hating AS types) but I tell him what I need, he usually tries to comply, somewhat, and I don't go slamming doors and being an assh*le about it and ignoring him for a week. Smiling like a sociopath eh? I like it. How are you living with the preppy? I'd have gone quite mad well before this...

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siuan wrote:
lastcrazyhorn wrote:
My roomie just tore me a new one. I'm one of those kinda messy AS types. It's not that I intend to be; I just don't see the mess until it hits a certain point. And it wasn't like I was leaving my mess on her side of the room or anything.
So instead of talking to me about this last week when it was really pissing her off, she just ignored me all week (something that really rubs me the wrong way) and went around slamming doors really loudly (something that REALLY wigs me out-- sudden loudness and all). So after she finished tearing me a new one, listing all this minute bs that only a neurotic preppy b***h (I'm living with a prep for god's sake) would care about, I'm left sitting silent, staring at the wall, violently shaking, feeling some good heartburn come on and, yes, smiling like a sociopath. Eyes wide, that sort of murderous glint in my eyes, smiling like I could kill someone and not give a damn. I hope she sees me and it freaks her out. F*ck her.
Anyone else get like this? How do you act when you get really pissed off? I'll accept any words of understanding/caring too.
So instead of talking to me about this last week when it was really pissing her off, she just ignored me all week (something that really rubs me the wrong way) and went around slamming doors really loudly (something that REALLY wigs me out-- sudden loudness and all). So after she finished tearing me a new one, listing all this minute bs that only a neurotic preppy b***h (I'm living with a prep for god's sake) would care about, I'm left sitting silent, staring at the wall, violently shaking, feeling some good heartburn come on and, yes, smiling like a sociopath. Eyes wide, that sort of murderous glint in my eyes, smiling like I could kill someone and not give a damn. I hope she sees me and it freaks her out. F*ck her.
Anyone else get like this? How do you act when you get really pissed off? I'll accept any words of understanding/caring too.
My husband is a messy AS type (by my standards anyhow, I'm one of the neat freak, clutter-hating AS types) but I tell him what I need, he usually tries to comply, somewhat, and I don't go slamming doors and being an assh*le about it and ignoring him for a week. Smiling like a sociopath eh? I like it. How are you living with the preppy? I'd have gone quite mad well before this...

I spend a lot of time at the library.
I'm not going to move out though. She's dropping out next semester and I want the room.


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Smiling when afraid of angry is a common primate reaction that some humans have suppressed because of their cultural upbringings. In my case there is no joy to it and no intent to hurt anyone, it's just terror and disgust short-circuit somewhere in my brain and make me smile. I wish they didn't because people take it terribly wrong. There is nothing sociopathic about it and I hate when people associate those two because a sociopath smiles because they like hurting people, whereas a differnet neurologically-variant person might smile in a horrible situation out of fear, it's a totally different emotion behind the smile.
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