Danielismyname wrote:
It's like a seizure.
When you see me rocking on the spot and banging my head against stuff, there you go. Conversely, when you see me become "catatonic" and completely withdrawn, there you go again.
It's a different sensation to a panic attack due to anxiety, completely different; it's the worst feeling in the world [to me].
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This seems like a very good description to me. I think of it as a feedback loop happening in your head. A thought circles and circles and becomes more intense, and you can't move past it. The feeling becomes more and more intense and rationality shuts down completely. I tend not to have "explosive" meltdowns, I internalise, move somewhere quiet, where bad thoughts just consume me. It's horrible. Thankfully, I find them to be pretty rare things for me, but I know there are others who have them as a fairly common occurrence, and that's got to be hard.
A lot of people count simply being frustrated or angry or otherwise unable to cope as a meltdown. I'm not sure if that's correct - I think it's a very specific mode of being unable to cope, it's not like "normal" frustration or anger. I could just be misreading them, though.
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