I am perhaps a bit of a masochist on this front...? I hate being noticed; I’m nothing bad to look at; I just hate it. But if someone is to notice me, I want for them to notice that I am different, so I dress very strangely, which draws attention... My favorite prop is a black, leather cowboy hat; and that’s just for starters.
I find eye contact painful; I get the threat response; but I force myself to do it often as a personal test of strength; there is a demon I can at least try to face, quite literally. I wear mirrored shades a lot to hide and cheat (and I live near Seattle, so wearing shades in and of itself is weird).
I want to start a fashion trend where wearing full-face helmets/masks is not considered entirely freakish. I want to be Boba Fett, Samus Aran, Batman, the Silver Power Ranger, the Predator hunter, the Vorlon. I'm just crazy enough to perhaps try something like that at a grocery store, at least; of course with my luck, they'd think I was angling to rob the place of something...
I'm rather put off by the thought that one someone is looking at my physical form, they are not really seeing me. Look at my avatar, sitting there staring at you. Make eye contact with my iconic self. What does it tell you about me? About who I am, what I am like, my dreams, my passions, my hopes, my fears? What might I be thinking about? How many universes do you think are hidden behind my eye, my facade, my wall? What you see there is not really me; it is just a conduit for me to access this place, this world, this life.
Good fortune,
- Icarus considers the bones and skin around his brain to be a mask...
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Please forgive me if, in the heat of battle, I sometimes forget which side I'm on.