Spokane_Girl wrote:
Do you see yourself as broken because your mind works differently? Your mind doesn't work like the way it's supposed to? etc.
No I do not see myself as broken, just moulded differently to others, which I am actually grateful for.
Spokane_Girl wrote:
Sometimes I feel broken like my brain needs to be fixed because its malinfunctioning (sp). You know how machines are and electronic stuff and when they don't work right, they get fixed. Sometimes thigns can't be fixed so you throw it away. With humans, you have to live with it.
Your brain is not malfunctioning, it is just wired differently. You really need to look at all the things you consider to be 'broken' and turn them into positives. I will use the next quote from yourself as an example.
Spokane_Girl wrote:
When I fail to read between the lines or fail to detect emotions from people or read people just because my brain didn't tell me how that person is feeling because I didn't feel it, I feel my brain is broken because it doesn't work right like the way it's supposed to. I feel my brain is malfunctioned. Sometimes I can feels people's feelings and lot of the times I can't so sometimes that part of my brain works. I wonder if that's how NTs mind works, feeling people's feelings so that's how they know how someone else is feeling.
Instead of feeling like your brain is malfunctioning because you cannot always pick up emotions, don't worry about it, you can actually bypass some tricky emotional situations this way. And yes, NT's can pick up people's emotions, but some use others emotions to their advantage and can be manipulative, which, I feel, you will never be because you are too busy trying to grasp the concept of picking up others emotions because you are concerned for them/yourself. Not that I think you would be manipulative anyway, but you see what I'm saying?
Spokane_Girl wrote:
I feel that way about my aspie traits too. Sometimes I am rigid, most times I am not. Sometimes I'm inflexible and sometimes I'm not. Sometimes I talk to people and have normal conversations and sometimes I do not. My brain works NT off and on. Funny eh.
I'm exactly the same, so I tend to steer clear of others as much as I can when I am not in a chatty mood because of my aspieness. That can suck but when I am chatty it makes up for it.
Spokane_Girl wrote:
My boyfriend's definition of broken is being dead. His definition of fixing someone is bringing them back to life.
And you are not dead. Therefore, according to your boyfriend, you are not broken and he obviously wants you the way you are otherwise why would he stick around?
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