Autism DX: Soak it for all its worth

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17 Feb 2008, 2:27 pm

I was cheated out of my inheritance by a quick-thinking NT step-mother that got my father to change his Last Will and Testament at the last minute when he had 3 brain tumors.

Then, I went on to work pretty hard labor for almost 12 years.. pretty much every day of the week only to loose everything I had worked for because of a car wreck...

I had left home when I was 15, but was encouraged to return and told that my step-father was no longer around. I took the remaining belongings I had up to that family to try and get to know them again, and my step-father showed up stealing my things all over again...

After a bad break-up that left me feeling inferior and excluded by everyone, I was diagnosed with NLD (Mild asperger's) -- this, in my mind, proved I was a "freak"...

I have a bad back/neck problems and my feet need operating on, so I can't stand long and can't work much.. All those years of working with other people were pretty much miserable, as I was ostracized by them.. At least now, I finally know why... I'm "autistic"... Yeah, if there is any help out there financial or otherwise, I'd take it... Otherwise, I probably would end up living in the woods or resorting to crime...

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17 Feb 2008, 2:35 pm

MusicMaker1 wrote:

Because of all of the difficulties trying to survive with autism, has anyone here ever thought to turn to a Life of Crime?

I'M not saying that it would be a good choice, but I'm just wondering if anyone here has ever thought much about it? I can see where in utter frustration with life, with abuse at the workplace and bills piling up, that it could be something people might at times consider as a last option.. I've thought about living in the woods myself-- somehow trying to survive without having to show up at a workplace where I will be harassed and humiliated on a daily basis...

About the 'life of crime', I've been to prison 6 or 7 times. I am a fellon, and I have spent a little over a year, of my life, behind bars. I was a drug dealer, drug user, and a thief, at one point in my life. I'm not particularly proud of those facts but, I'm not ashamed either. In some ways, it was a great learning experience, and I'm a much tougher individual because of it. Sometimes I think, my past, is the reason I'm still alive today. I have already experienced the worst, and I know, life can only get better. I am a survivor. :wink:

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17 Feb 2008, 3:08 pm

It's tempting and I can certainly sympathize with the opinions expressed in this forum--FTW and all that. But, the thing to remember is that the NT's control the game. That means they get to write the rules. It's not fair, it sucks, but what can you do about it?

The big drawback I would say is that if you think you are discriminated against now, it is nothing to what you can expect from society if you break the rules and get caught. Yes, there definitely is a double standard out there. Certain people and certain groups can get away with more because of who and what they are. We Aspergers people can not. We are probably more likely to get caught and to get more severe punishment when we are caught. So that alone keeps me on the straight and narrow, I don't know about anyone else.

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17 Feb 2008, 4:24 pm

I just happened to think of an expression:

"Don't give up before the Miracle happens".... or "Miracle waiting to happen"

I still have a little hope left, which is a good thing... but I sometimes think about alternatives to working..

Yeah, if they don't treat me right in general, I'm sure they'd treat me worse in prison.... worse than all the other prisoners probably.. Crime has been tempting at times though... I'll admit....

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17 Feb 2008, 4:39 pm

IdahoAspie wrote:

I am not hired, I am sued, I am mistreated, beaten up, laughed at, broke, single, I have bad credit, never given promotions, never invited to parties or even out to lunch, I have no money, and no future. All this because I have Autism.

So my question is, if society spits on me and keeps me down because I am Autistic, why shouldn't I then try to get all that I can for it? Why should I be forced to be someone else's pimp, clown, toy, laborer, and one night stand, or sucker for a lousy (even criminal) contract? What do I get? Seems like the only thing I get is the short end of the stick every time, because there is ALWAYS someone out there willing to take advantage of me and out manouver me socially to get what's rightfully mine or what I deserved and worked hard for, and there is never ANYBODY to stop them from doing it to me.

For this, I say we should try and use Autism to get all we can from society, because, society uses and abuses us everyday, every way they can, and even when you don't know it. I say, take as big of a peice back as you can, because it still isn't going to be 1/10 of what society is stealing from you.

I fully empathize with that statement. All my life, I wracked my brain over how different, and better, things would be if I could just be normal. I'm far too kind, I give money away when I can't afford it, I sacrifice myself for the benefit of others.

But...I enjoy it. Everyone in this World is taken advantage of, one way or the other. I see this, and can't justify my own hate to be taken advantage of. Instead, I want to save everyone. This endless cycle of hate...needs to stop.

Given my own feelings of sadness, I don't want any other to go through the same thing. Though I'll admit sometimes, the adversity presented before me leaves me quite corrupt. It's a never ending struggle, Good and Evil.

Haha, so strange. Presenting past knowledge as my own. But I know it's because, we all endure life, and even if the answer is given to us...we must strive on our own to give it meaning.

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17 Feb 2008, 9:15 pm

MusicMaker1 wrote:

Some people do consider me a criminal because I am unable to pay my bills. That makes you a criminal if you are forced or tricked to sign something and can't pay it.

Yes, I am thinking of way of trying to make money all the time. So far none of them work well because they are require interacting with people or doing things I get burned out on.

I have so many degree, licenses, etc, it is crazy, but I am still unemployable, and intolerable.

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17 Feb 2008, 9:18 pm

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IdahoAspie wrote:

I know you're having a hard time right now, and I don't know if you're 100% serious about this, but I just wanted to say that I don't think that should be the answer. NT's get screwed by society, too. Only they don't have a diagnosis they can use to sue for. Every day people don't get what they work hard for, get used, get abused, get things taken from them that are rightfully theirs. The world is unjust. I think it's hard to remember that when you're focused on your problems stemming from a specific source most of the time, but everyone else has their different versions of the same problems.

I'd consider this exploiting yourself. I think you deserve better than that.

Well, if they would back off of me, and leave me alone, I would be happy to not be so aggressive, but I really get tired of being taken advantage, the best them for some people is to be told NO with a legal action because they otherwise won't stop.

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