It was like I was able to take a sigh of relief after 32 years of not knowing wtf is going on . I've always had this profound sense that something was wrong with me and the way I felt about life, my interactions - massive confusion. it seemed that I can't open my mouth without hurting someone. The awareness of AS made me feel ok to be me. After a lifetime of trying to fit in and failing miserably, I can now focus on myself and embrace my identity. My therapist (who hates pshychiatric lables) said that I am the kind of person that will be much happier if I stop trying to fit in socially.