Do you restrain/censor yourself?

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I find it necessary to censor myself. I pick up profanity from everyone who walks past my house. I am the only educated soul in East Price Hill, Cincinnati, OH, USA. Some people won't tolerate me cussing so I censor myself when in their presence. I try my best to stay out of public so that I can feel more free to let my profanities through.

As for restraining myself as in bottling things up...I used to do that, too. I still do it a little bit. I have no friends. I can't seek emotional support from someone who doesn't have advanced knowledge of sign language. I often get so upset I forget how to word what's wrong! My whole family is so proud to not know sign so I have piss-poor communication with them. I have no friends, so nobody to sign with. That sux! I'll be so glad when the rejection finally stops !

I try, but it's hard to sometimes. If I'm upset, my emotions spill all over the place, even if I try my heart out to keep it in.

I don't swear, so that's not a problem, just by the way.

I started swearing at the age of 12 due to my emotional problems. I doubt I'll ever stop swearing...until I get something that's safe to hit when I get angry.

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My emotions spill all over the place too. It's so bad that many people want nothing to do with me and that really sux !

Same with me... I can't keep anything in if I tried. As a result I tend to speak my mind. If I can't speak it, then I type it. When I type it, it comes out better. I don't swear often, but as far as expressng anger, frustration, hurt.. that I can't hold in so well.

Often I wish I could say just the right things... I tend to just put on a dumb look, cry or stutter when I come into awkward situations... One occasion I wanted to show a writer who was signing books. (author of The Giver and Number the Stars). I wanted to just give her my contact info, say I am an aspiring writer, and like any advice she had in an email or something, but one NT instructor of the college hosting the event was trying to physically pull me away saying, "She's tired. Can you see she's busy and too tired? Don't bother her. She's a guest and not like the other writers who are more sympathetic, etc." Grrr. I broke down and started crying because the NT instructor made me feel like I was some idiot with the intellectual ability of a 3 year old...

I wish I could have known what to say in that situation... Anyways I did do what I wanted even though the NT was in my way... I felt really bad though because I violated a social boundry.

Yes I do. And even when I don't restrain myself I do apply a censor - or to put it another way I choose my words carefully. I only swear when I feel the need to show that I am angry and that's a better way than capital letters. Mind you I use capitals as well, especially if there's an auto censor or swearing gets you an automatic ban.

I used to be pretty ordinary. I'm better at it now.

Yeah I censor myself a lot regarding whats and appropriate topic/way of expressing myself etc. I still don't always get it right though. As for emotions I still find it difficult to moderate these, particularly anger as it just tends to sneak up on me and I'm throwing things around the place before I know what's happened.

I don't really have to censor myself. I am used to keeping most things too myself. Losing my temper is hard to hide though.

If you think you could be a danger to others, I would strongly advise learning more about ASD (Autistic Spectra Disorder, the umbrella category for AS and all related conditions.) There are techniques in anger management that do help many people, too. Don't be fatalistic, you can affect your life. (though perhaps not as quickly as you'd like, alas...) But your mom...I fear is a bit unimaginative. I had a friend with ASD who collapsed crying on the kitchen floor of his home one night, overwhelmed with loneliness and alienation and sorrow that his parents treated him like a pet and not a person. His mom found him like this and asked in a harsh tone if he'd been doing drugs. Bipolar can cause going from one extreme to the other, PMS can cause it, severe stress...or ASD.

Because in ASD the only way that we make our learning process work is by being willing to throw out theories about the way things happen and adopt new ones when necessary. The longer and more often we do this, the better off we are because the more effective we are at learning. BUT this comes with a high price tag: if you're used to throwing up your hands and trying a new idea at the drop of a hat...this means you are prone to copying this habit over to your emotional and personal life. That you re-interpret ideas, opinions or relations to people because you think they will be as systematic and reliable and consistent as learning to read or do math. Unfortuantely, people are not consistent. Even if you're consistent, they're not, and that's a hard thing to live with: the quest for consistency, and regularly having that quest thwarted.

(Temple Grandin (prominent autism author, herself with ASD) cited a theory that ASD brains work in reverse to some degree. Normally, people learn a general fact, such as "some pets are dogs"...and then learn specific details from deduction "a daschund looks different from a beagle so these must be different _types_ of dog, because they still bark, wag their tails, etc.) An ASD instead doesn't understand "some pets are dogs". They instead try to remember EVERY animal they see living with humans and comparing all the traits. Finally they decide "if it barks and wags its tail and has a certain type of nose, it must be all the same type of critter...and then they connect that to these "dogs" that everyone is talking about. So if you start with many or all learning situations as jigsaw puzzles, you have to be flexible, because in ASD you're working with no picture to tell you what the puzzle looks like.)

(I thought I'd comment because if your mom had been mine and said that to me, I would have been hurt. I think her comment, however well meaning , is ignorant and you should realize she doesn't know as much as she thinks. I've been looking around if there are any Jews or pro-Judaism folk posting on Wrong Planet, and you said you had an interest in Chasidism and Jewish literature so...hi )

I tend to analyse and forget that people can get emotional about what I say. I can say something I see as a plain honest fact, it be misunderstood and all kinds of things attached to it. I suppose that makes me blunt and I have to be careful about that; thats why the internet is so good, I get to re-read what I say before I press the submit button. Its not foolproof though, so I censor or run through the post first.

I took a test about this kind of thinf. It was some research looking at social cues, obvious and subtle ones. I thought I was doing really well until I got the results, I got the glaringly obvious ones and missed nearly all of the subtle clues - hence my self-censoring.

i can hold my self at point but if i hurt my foot on edge im cursing badly but luckkily i dont need to whatch my mouth so carefully since every one swears a lot in finish languande in here what u are doing? is more like what a f**k u are doing? and that is nice tone though only most teens in here use those

I have to restrain or censor myself at least once or twice an hour.

I don't really censor myself in general; my friends just accept that I can be a little "odd" at times. :D

I find that writing it down helps wonders to get it out of your system. I might try carry a pad with me everywhere I go for "expressing myself" to myself.

Censor myself? No way.

whenever i do talk about any feelings i have im told i am not actually talking because i am apparently inaudible

I have problems expressing my feelings in general :S especially in the form of hugs, and other physical gestures. I'd rather say how I'm feeling in words, but even that is difficult sometimes. That's why I like my quote; people think I'm odd, just because my expressions of feeling are different from most.