IdahoAspie wrote:
After considerable thought, I am unhappy being Autistic and wish I was not.
It causes me way to many problems and I wish I could be neurotypical.
It causes people to tease me, steal from me, treat me with disrespect. I cannot interact with people normally. I cannot answer phone calls, or make phone calls. I cannot dress normal. I cannot maintain a normal sexual partner, or otherwise friendship with anyone. I cannot pay my bills on time, get a job, keep a job, make a decent amount of money. I have the working memory of a knat. I have a no future, and I am always depressed. I offend people, constantly. I cannot approach people, I cannot start a normal conversation. I cannot do anything like a normal person. 85% of my personal relationships end in near disaster.
I want to be normal. I want to have a life, with a partner, normal thinking, a career, friends, and relatives that don't acknoweledge me only because they feel obligated to do so. I want to be a normal people. I wish I wasn't Autistic. I feel like damaged goods. I feel like an incomplete person.
Anyone else feel this way?
There are what, 6 billion people on this planet. You need maybe 5 for a social life. You need successful casual contact with maybe 50 for work. Keep looking, the math is in your favor.
26 Apr 2008, 9:23 am
