Do you feel bad when you exhibit an AS trait?

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I only mentioned it because I thought it was relevant to the topic of this thread, the second post (actually my third in this thread) was more of a spur of the moment thing out of my surprise.

Actually I have only really become aware of how inappropriate some of my behaviour is since I have been on WP!

In fact this is a pretty major issue in my life at the moment. Practically everything I do at work recently seems to be wrong and it is getting to the point where I want to tell them all I have AS to explain why I have been doing the stuff I have been doing (though I don't think telling them would be a very sensible thing to do).

I am also very stressed because I am (now) so self-conscious about how I must appear to others, and I have lost all confidence in myself & my ability to do this job (which I was never very good at in the first place).

Hey Krek I see where you are coming from I too tend to be more trusting. I had a rude coworker and while family said IF I WERE YOU I'D QUIT THIS JOB! I"M GOING TO MARCH UP TO YOUR BOSS AND GIVE HIM A PIECE OF MY MIND!! ! I was more like it's ok mom it's no big deal. One thing that got to me from this rude cowoker is the day before she quit she said she hated the new employee and that she was annoying (AKA ME!) After 3 months I finally said enough is enough since the boss would have me doing 1,000 things at once and sometimes yelled at me so I quit myself. My family said I stuck it out with the rude employee longer than I should have.

I hate doing stupid, klutzy stuff.

When it is one of the bad ones, yes.

Hah!

NEVER!

Like I would fall into such a pathetic state of mind as that.
It is the totalitarian ways of neurotypical society that are shaming you into feeling such. They have ideas above their station and remain blissfully unaware of their inferiority.


The only times I feel shame is when I FAIL to be Aspergian at times when I know I should be. The rare occasions when I'll choose to kowtow to someone rather than criticise them. The times when I become so aware of my compulsions that my body starts to reject them rather than refine them.
THOSE are the things to be ashamed of.

NEVER be ashamed of not being like them.

I don't feel shame for not being like them. I feel shame and guilt for, after 4 decades of trying, still not being able to act in a way more convenient to me among NTs. I confided in my neighbour my distress that the landlord is selling the flat and therefore I'll be homeless once they find a buyer. Immediately my neighbour talked to the landlord and is now buying the flat, so I'm soon out. I berate myself, feel lots of shame and guilt for not knowing better at my age, I shouldn't have told a neighbour that the flat is for sale!