I used to have these horribly bad ones. I would kick, scream, yell, cry....for quite some time. I would always remember that I had had one, but I could never remember what the trigger was. I would most definitely get into "fight or flight" mode, and once I was calmed down I would have difficulty remembering what the heck had happened. I usually said something like "I hate you and I wish I was never born" to my folks and I'd have no memory of it. I would always pass out because I was so exhausted from the adrenaline rush.
Now, and after many many years of therapy, I just quietly melt. I only cry in my room/car. I don't scream. I pound my pillows if I need to hit something (very rare these days). I know my triggers much better these days. And I know how to deal with them and deal with them ASAP so I don't have a "meltdown".
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19 May 2008, 6:50 pm
