Question about inappropiate thoughts

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Thankyou very very much for your replies, they have helped me alot.
I will try hard not to think badly of myself anymore for having these thoughts.

So do NTs have this problem too, or what?

I'm so relieved to know I'm not the only one who has these terrible thoughts I always shout "NO!" really loud in my head when they pop up.

I assume this is what doctors mean by "hearing voices"? So they can prescribe you pills?

You guys are right though, it seems like they only pop up during intense stress.

I don't think this is the sae thing as "hearing voices" but it isn't to far off. The difference is that you know your creating the thought and it's not a seperate entity talking to you. Perhaps schizophrenics are so disturbed by having these thoughts that they create seperate vooice/personalities to represent the "bad thoughts". I guess it is a pretty fine line and probably why some people with AS have been misDXed with schizophrenia. Some people do find relief being on anti-psychotics but I have heard many AS have very bad reactions to these meds(they actually make them more psychotic), and many of these meds also come with horrible long term side-effects. I would recommend anti-anxiety medications instead, if they get really bad. Effexor has been one of the better meds for me for helping with anxiety with out sedating me. I think it is also important to learn ways of decreasing stress in your life, (changing life sytles if you have to) and learning other stress reduction therapies.

Ah, I used to experience the same thing when I was younger, and it was quite troubling. You see, I had very strict, religious parents who probably suffered from OCD. There were lots of rules to follow, and I was not to question anything. On top of that, I was constantly being punished for minor accidental transgressions, like saying "Thank you!" without the proper amount of enthusiasm, and given neurotic punishments like having to say, "I'm sorry!" one hundred times in a row.

I think that everyone gets these bizarre, unwanted thoughts, but when you're under stress or subject to some form of neurosis (whether it's your own OCD or that of someone in your household) these thoughts tend to become more pronounced and more anxiety-ridden.

For instance, when I was a kid, I used to think that God hears all of your thoughts and will send you to Hell if you ever question His existence (based on what I had been told). So I was constantly getting these unwanted thoughts telling me, "God is dead!", "There is no god!", "I hate God!", etc. I think it had to do with the stress of trying to adhere to rigid, inflexible thinking.

These days, I don't think that there are any bad thoughts. I let myself think about anything. I question things and explore belief systems freely. If I think of something that seems inappropriate, I ask myself why, and I thoroughly analyze it until I understand its origin (maybe I was angry at someone, for example). And I am no longer troubled by unwanted thoughts.

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For instance, when I was a kid, I used to think that God hears all of your thoughts and will send you to Hell if you ever question His existence (based on what I had been told). So I was constantly getting these unwanted thoughts telling me, "God is dead!", "There is no god!", "I hate God!", etc. I think it had to do with the stress of trying to adhere to rigid, inflexible thinking.

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Wow, that's EXACTLY what I used to experience when I believed in a god. I would try to convince myself that if god is all-knowing, he'll know that I don't really believe these things that are popping into my head. It still made me very worried, though.

Indeed the best way to deal with unwanted thoughts is not to react to them, because after all, they are only words and do not reflect your actual beliefs. Don't try to resist them, because to resist a thought means that you have to hold that thought in your mind so that you know what you're resisting, anyway. Acknowledge it, maybe even chuckle at it, and let it pass through.

I do believe in God, but I have never known Him to be rigid or inflexible.

Eugene Breuler (?) coined scizophrenia and autism as a symptom of it. The two share a breaking with reality and withdrawal into fantasy. The major distinction is that schizophrenia is a disintegration of personality. Autism is not. Maybe this is why kids are not typically diagnosed with scizophrenia. It usually occurs in adolescence and there is a genuine deterioration of the person. This person becomes someone else and can no longer function as he/she once did. I think this is the most tragic for loved ones who witness the loss of a person they once knew. The person with autism was always this way--from birth.

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