What do you do when you have a meltdown?

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My meltdowns everybody knows about, i become very destructive, anything in my path gets broken some way or another, animals get pushed, people get hurt, i think at least one person suffers some form of bleeding, and either a sprain, break, or intense pain, and its usually starts out loud. After my meltdown, im so worn out, felt like i ran 60miles, mentally exhausted which leaves my body so tired, that i can literally fall asleep right afterwards.

I think my last meltdown which lasted about an hour, was couple hours ago, and my dog got hurt(got in the way of my phone as it was thrown with intense power), my boyfriend got a huge bump on his head, along with lots of bruises, scratches, teeth marks, and almost broke the door again lol, my head also suffered like usual. Today i had a total of 2 big meltdowns, and like 3 or 4 mini meltdowns. Take inconsideration, i still dont sleep good(going to see a sleep doctor soon), the fact that my routine keeps getting messed up, people still love to do changes around me, people still yell at me for stimming, and i have such bad sensory, im always uncomfortable some way or another.....basically not a good household for an autistic at all .

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If I have a meltdown then I am either very angry or very frustrated. Or a combination or both.

So when I have a meltdown, I leave. I get away to immediately remove myself from the moment and any temptaion to do any more harm. And to cool down and come to my senses.

i just yell try to not headbang at wall i just usually get restained if i headbang to prevent damage and i dont like it at all so if they try restain me i migth hit em during meltdown

I trash everything in reach, things, me, people, yell, but mainly other people who get in my way are sure to get bruises and scratches or getting bitten. I really need to pay attention to not kill anybody. I'm probably like a predator or something. My mind shuts down reason, but my body acts pretty intelligent in trashing.

Afterwards, I'm perfectly all right usually. I have endless energy resources. I don't even get tired.

Usualy can begin with yelling my face becomes incredibly angry or something, I have been told I am sorry scarry that I can stun people, and people watching have been in a totaled frozen state. My head frobs, I feel no pain, I that I have some mind during this but it feels like the mind of a beast, my main tools are my nails during this. Often what I have done has been either targeting someone by putting my 'claws' around there throught, I seem to have some odd sense of knowing exactly where to attack, I think I must be a lot like my avatar. In a way I do not want to turn out and it is a strugle to not keep it up, as everything I just did will be under my own reflection. It is often followed by crying. A part of me enjoys it, finds that being in this beast state is so raw, so almost fun, sometimes something in me wants me to just have an excuse to turn. I guess it is a bit Mr Hyde, except I have named mine Darkness.

I generally scream, bang my head, bite myself, scratch myself, hit myself in other areas, may hit surrounding objects, I don't hit people anymore but if someone was right in the way of my arms when I start flailing I might, I thwap my keyboard really hard, make growly frustrated noises in my throat, hit objects into my head, etc.

Generally if I have an effect on anything it's only anything right next to me. I used to have them far worse and more violent, but now I don't.

Well mine have not happend in years but I keep it in the back of my mind in case I attacked and need to defend myself.

If I see one coming along, I get some sleep if the opportunity's about.

The police took me to the psych ward because according to the person that called them.. I threw a tantrum
NOT FAIR NOT FAIR
and the psychs wonder why I have such problem with anger

I guess that I am lucky that I have not been comited, I think at times I actualy was crazy, but realy go up then come down and if you are agitated you go up a lot more.

I don't think my "meltdowns" have the same neurological status that most peoples' here do, but when they happen I kick holes in the walls.

When I was younger, I'd yell and scream, run around throwing things and pushing things over, and sometimes hit myself during meltdowns.
These days I very rarely have meltdowns, and they're nowhere near as intense as they used to be.

In minor cases, I might sorta breath heavily, look angry and rub something such as a pen...

In major cases, I might sorta knock chairs over, throw objects around, punch stuff, kick things, slam doors, yell at the top of my voice, cry, write something rather disturbing down on a piece of paper...

You get the idea.

I dont really know why but people get really scared of me in regards to melt down. Even in prison, like the other women said, "You'll be back, with your temper you'll kill someone."

Like lots of people do, I blank but from what I do remember it's like I become this other person complete opposite to all I know of myself. Like people say "anger is... something about insanity? or when you get to that, "your not steering the boat no more."

I remember last in prison. The screws had to come and get me in the middle of the night and I got transfered to maxium division.
Well I dont remember lots cause I had got locked down for days but I do remember yelling and stuff smashing things about what ever I could and the other women for ages thought I really was 'psycho'
One because I kept every one in max awake to early hours in the morning with crying and carrying on but one thing they thought was funny is that one minute I had this voice then the next I sounded like a completely different person. I dont remember doing this but rage is well who knows.... a form of insanity?

I thought my change into a different person may have been a different personality, I often wondered if I was turning into gollum or something.