I have not been diagnosed as yet, and have not asked anyone about it yet, either, as the idea makes me terrified because it's one of those new things. But I will get to it. But anytime I'm somwhere new, with new people or a new situation even with family, I cannot speak well or function as I would if I was just in my apartment by myself. I have zero comfort level at nearly all places, unless I 've been there more than several times, such as a grocery store (and I hate changing stores) or work, which I've gotten used to, but I tend to go very silent most of the time there, so people think I'm odd, of course, same story when I was in school. I also have to keep to a schedule and write everything down I need to do, or I will freak if I don't follow a schedule of what I need to do. I'm beginning to realize through reading books and whatever, that I am not alone in having these things bother me, although I learned to cope or hide them somewhat because I thought these problems, that everyone else is going to therapy for, were just something that I did, in my own world, in my own way, and I've always tried to hide tht I was strange. I'm afraid I was never successful at it. My experiences aren't exactly like everyone else's, but it's so intense for me to realize there are other people who go through this stuff.
16 Aug 2008, 12:07 pm
