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i am sorry for telling this, but it seems to me, like you actually want to feel pity or us to feel pity for you. i was there, too. i thought that when i show the others how much i suffer, and they will pity me, it will make me feel better. but selfpity is one of the worst thing one can do for his mental health.

i apologize if that's not your case. although, you are going to refuse this in any case.

i dont blame you for thinking like this but it isnt true at all i would give anything for having a new life its calld an emo and im not it
i just dont whant to tell all details i hardly expected that i would said anything but fine if you really whant to know more details
ive moved homes 4times switchd school 6times everytime a horrible school experience (also now) being left alone by my familie all the time my mother devorces my dad because he was always on the bars and they always had a fight everyday and then when she meets another guy (my stefdade now) and suddenly she goes out all day everyday leaving me to take care of myself (eating sandich or croque monsieurs) and then she suddenly with teh rest of my familie deside to stay home like all day and blaming stuff on me and i even havent started about my sister she's really very agresive and anoying one who drinks and somethimes uses drugs and blames me everytime she sees me now i go to a school where i learn nothing at all i dont even try to make friends anymore live in the so many'est house wich i mostly have to take care of everything used to go to school with a broken bike to (dont whant to go more in detail but you get the point ofc lot more problems but liek i said dont whanna go further in details thx)
btw im leaving the worst parts out

yes, it definitely sucks. i can understand you. but that's not something you can actually solve. although, you can accept it for what it is and just don't let it bother you anymore. you need to be strong there, man. once i came to understanding that i don't need anyone i focused my energy on making something out of my life not to end up like my family. you see, if something is eating your energy up, you need to redirect it somewhere else. it's not easy, i know. you need to be strong, no other choice.

Being strong is not the only solution. I believe what I said in another topic, that catharsis (spit it out) is neccessary and helpful on this board. What you may need is someone who listens to you, someone with a good ear.
If you like you cam pm me and I will listen.

Actually I can relate completely to you, I was left alone all the time, my mom died when I was eight, then my dad worked all day and then he got a girlfriend and went over there all night to his "new" "better" family so I was alone all the time except my older brother who drank a lot and would take his anger of my mom's death and my dad's desertion out on me by beating me up all the time so I couldn't stand it anymore and ran away and I never went back. That doesn't mean anything was any easier, though, I can tell you.

the whole wp is here to listen. its healthier to have more points of view. as you can see you dont completely agree with mine. my childhood was damaged in similar way, my father thought he can beat up the autism from me. now i just never rely on anyone.

well, you got to grow over this, called self healing. Easier said than done, my dad is still on my mind, my entire dysfunctional family still is, but one has to try. It is not because you were run once over by a car that you can't cross the street anymore...

thanks for the understanding its helpfull to know im not the only one going to a hard time or atleast,once to went to a hard time didnt expect so much people when i join this site to have a bad life so most people can probbely relate to how i must feel im very confused right now dunno what to think anymore ofc im used to it but like that really makes a diffrence

well, i was not complaining, just explaining the source of my point of view. so far, never needing anyone worked for me. i realize its not healthy, though. have a nice weekend.

so anyone has any advice for running away(or atleast some advice on something cause im not changing my mind ever but everyone dis-advice it)
isnt there something like an aspie home(would make it easy'er for me)

running away will not help and you are not only running away from your bad situation and folks but also from yourself...you take your problems to wherever you go, and if you end up with misunderstandign NTs, then what?

1 year i have thinking about this thing why woulnd i know what side effects it has and i dont care i run away from my problems atleast bether than staying in it and grow super emo

I just said you can't run away from your problems because teh problems are not only around you but also in yourself

so what am i supposed to do just rot away here and bite my fingers off wile i slightly get mentaly crazy

im tired of this crap simply dont care what people say about running away i will do it once

i have a clue how the hell i get to do this i mean its not like i have much things to do

srry but im tired of this crappy s**t depressions i mean i cant sleep untill its 2.30 or higher in the middle of the night

and i usualy wake up at freaking 7 a clock all days when it school (without school i also stay up till 2.30 and over but i cant

help it just cant sleep) and i know the problems are in me but i dont whanna rot away simply said

0.001% chance or 0.00% chance on a normal/regulair life?if that whas the case i still would have taken the 0.001%

Sure. The world is a cold cruel place and having people who let you eat their food out of the refrigerator and a bed to sleep in is worth pretty much a whole lot of stress.

Rather than run away, why don't we work to solve your problems together?

You can still run away if that doesn't work, howz that?

Take the help that we can give you and turn and face your problems. Start here and now by listing your real greivances.
all we have to go on is very vague complaints over here. What exactly and precisely is hard for you to deal with, is unfair, or etc?






If you were really going to run away, you wouldn't be yanking our chain, you'd be out the door.
Quit yanking our chain, and quit yanking your own chain, and be honest with yourself and us.
you are mad as heck and you are hurting, but you aren't leaving or you wouldn't be begging us to tell you not to.




Thats a fine outcome of space invasion and over stimulation. If you learn to ground and center, and some hypnosis self induction, you can learn to get to sleep any time you want to.



I can help you but you have to take me seriously and do what i tell you to help yourself.
The first step is to realize that not being able to sleep means that the id is for some reason freaked out.
So then you have to figure out how to calm it down. then you will be able to sleep.




you have extraordinary problems and obstacles because of being what and who you are. If you let it be bad for you, it can be as bad as you make it. If you use those things as weights to make you strong and as the obstacles by which you
plot a course for growth, you can become potentially stronger than NTs.

How you deal with this makes it either an ace or a deuce. You can be superior by having harder problems to solve that thus make you stronger, or, you can be inferior because thats an easy cop out.

Choice is up to you.