I'm tired....I feel I want to give up now.

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of course you can write your feelings here.
i'm sorry for how you're feeling. i can honestly say that i've been there, and please don't give up hope.. it can get better. I promise. you are loved and we are all one, so if you take yourself away from us, our oneness will be damaged. so please don' t do it. we want you here because you're a part of us. take heart ok

oh hun, you're carrying the world on your back. your pain is deep and heavy, and i wish for you to heal.
i am happy that you're talking about it.. that is good. but if you can, you should talk to a therapist who can help you get through and past these hurts and wounds. I was wounded as a child too but not as bad as that. dont give up, ok? you can get through this, but you need someone to help pull you through.

It sounds like you are bored. In that boredom you might have given all of your power to to that which quenches life. Therefore, you have nothing to life for.

I imagine it can suck to be a genious. In their own way, every person is a genious of something though. All that in your head is a place to be to process, I conceive.

There is a time and place to come out and play your realizations upon the worlds. Without the happiness, the flame in you slowly gets dim, less fuel for the creative and amazing fires. Until the flame is so small that you have to begin eating your life force energies directly.

Causing grief and complete disconnect. Then as if a blanket of death lies upon all that once lived at times, in parts, in a semi state of urgent present bliss, like in certain moments of discovery, you become immobile until you decide to live.

My meaning of life is to be joy, it takes extreme determination and a willingness to forgive and be absolute in your patience and intelligence, in relationship to knowledge through love for truth.

If your music is as amazing as I think it is, then you also gave what little you could muster in your life, to creating the magic you do, to make people feel greater and deeper, in the moment you wielded your greatest devices.

To have more of that available, Try to become a part of soft natural beauty, then you will be able to slowly rebirth and come out of the metamorphosis a brilliant creature of the trueness of your soul self, the part that knows the bright light.

Good Night and Good Luck. For to have one who has a talent like yours, for which to sway the hearts of beasts, towards higher intentions and awarenesses, is a true blessing indeed.

You probably know what healthy food is.

Sincerely,

Alissa

You sound like a wonderfully talented person.
You have been through so much and you are in so much pain.
But please, do not think you are alone, you are not. There are so many people here that have been through similar things as you, and believe me, felt the depression, loneliness and sense of 'what the hell is the point' that you are feeling right now.

But you must seek help.

You are depressed and things look bad but there is help and you have to gather all your strength and even if it is the last thing in the world you feel like doing, you must get to your doctor and tell him/her how you are feeling and don't give up on life.

Just last year a beautiful young girl (Sophie) who visited this site, gave up and the world has lost an amazing person because she is no longer here.

It is hard being Aspie. We are different, (yes, some would say odd) but that does not mean we are pointless and have no worth in this world.

Kia Kaha.

true:



(second ending to Space Battleship Yamato, last ep)

Blimey, I know where you are coming from, God you are talented. I wish I had your abiility.

To hell with people, you have one friend - thats one more than I have. Even my wife talks to me like s**t. And my dog is alpha so wants to attack me!! !!

Medicine is needed, think along the lines of how the Chinese would approach the problem. In China you only paid your doctor when you were well!

Eat three raw radish twenty minutes before breakfast every day.
Reduce 'processed' food. No need to pay 'organic' money.

Eat complex carbohydrates and seafoods. Fruit and veg (tho I avoid anything citric and the dreaded shellfish which send me high) apples and bananas and raw turnip, and radish again! Good quality 'fish fingers' are easy to warm up as I cannot / don't like cooking. My fav is a thin sliced well cooked crispy bacon sandwich.

Eat beans, nuts, as well as fish and sea vegetables. Don't eat when stressed. Take a vitamin and mineral supplement- beware of magnesium it dulls my senses - I seem to be very sensitive to it.

Avoid simple sugars. Boil one ounce of raisins with one ounce of red dates in water. Eat to relieve anxiety.

Try to eat regularly, though that is easier said than done as without my wife I would hardly know if its night or day!

I can at times go into the countryside just to cry and rid myself of the melancholy. Read a good book on depression - always lifts my spirits, ie Dr Antony Clare on Spike Milligan or the book by David S. Awbrey 'Finding Hope in the Age of Melancholy'.


Walk in the woods or along little mountain streams.
Look at the stars. December 14th has a meteor shower.
Listen to chamber music, Beethoven is my favourite, the three Rasumovskys are heavenly. You will know them already I think.
Listen to birdsong. If you can - chop wood. Collect twigs - have a bonfire.

I have several big gesso panels each stained with a single oil colour, one each for the earth colours and one with cad yellow. Stunning. Avoid any big expanse of blues or red.

Memorise something important, the first page of the Bible in the King James version. The language is wonderful.

You've one life - live it for you!

I know all about crappy parents - to hell with 'em.!

The past is dead, its gone, the molecules dispersed, your enemies sad or tired or worthless.

Life is only a series of 'now'. Is that Bhuddism?

I can be your friend!

Conversely, you could give up (after all, death may just be less painful than living).

The body is a machine, take it for long walks, drink water, and it will want food. the basics rule all.

Here is a saying I use:

Old soul you are alive, you might as well make the best of it.

you are not crazy. I know exactly the creature you're talking about.

there's been a lot of good advice already, mine would be same as Callista's- go see a doc and don't be afraid of meds.

good luck.

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Conversely, you could give up (after all, death may just be less painful than living).


thank you for you information. I appreciate your suggestion to above person.

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The member "Danielismyname" posted that nasty message. Please don't give up. Things can get better, but it's up to you to start things going.

Call that doctor back and make an appointment. GET HELP!

well...old soul....Hang in there. I have had very acute depressive episodes. the pass IF you get help.

when it is beyond doing anything that is suggested... and this is where severe depression takes us - it is time to get professional help.

don't give up.

^Lame and selfish.

All I can say is this:
Life sucks.
Sometimes it sucks really, really bad.
But all Life ever asks of you is to get up the next day and carry on as best you can. Nothing more, nothing less.
If you cheat your way to the end (and yes, suicide is cheating- the ultimate puss out) then you've cheated everyone else out the chance to know you and to hear your story.

Dont't give up. This is a nice place to get to know others with similar problems. Just try us, sure one of us can come up with some solution.
I think you are a lot like me. When I think I've had it, it just turns out like; I'll try again. You are basicly an optimist, but you are sometimes infected with pessimism. That's all there is to it. Now, go on!

mosez : isn't that a Groucho Marx quote? My fav Woody Allen is 'the last time I was inside a woman it was the Statue of Liberty' ho ho